Chasing Memories

Memories fill my mind,
Emotions fill my heart,
As I wish for just a moment,
To be a child once more.
To hold your hands with those of a child,
To see the world through innocent eyes,
And be held in your arms once more.
Why can’t I, for a moment,
Halt the hands of time?
Why aren’t you here with me?
I’m still here,
I’m still here to live.
A broken heart,
A broken star of glass.
Even if everyone else goes,
I hope to endure the fire,
Even if everything is left broken and scarred,
Here I hope to stay,
Strong and brave for you,
Till I reach the end,
That final chapter.
Memories fill my mind,
Emotions fill my heart,
As I wish for just a moment,
To be a child once more.
To laugh with you as you lift me up,
And show me the joys of life.
I once thought,
I once wished,
That we would never have to say goodbye.
I once dreamed of a day,
When you would be the one to let me go,
When you two would dance together with me,
And see me grow.
Now I wander other worlds,
As I dream of what could have been,
As I dream to forget the pain.
Yet I know,
There is still so much to experience,
So much to see and hear,
I’m still here,
Here to live.
I can’t halt the hands of time,
So all I can do is watch seeds grow,
See metal rust and flowers bloom,
As stars shine and die,
And watch the world before me change,
Wishing that you were here.
Memories fill my mind,
Emotions fill my heart,
As I wish for just a moment,
To be a child once more.
To forget all the worries,
And simply let the days go by,
Smiling all the while.
Now I Long for a warmth I may never have,
A fragile wish.
Why can’t I, for a moment,
Halt the hands of time?
Why aren’t you here with me?
I’m still here,
I’m still here to live.
I close my tired eyes,
When tears threaten to drown the light,
When it all becomes too much to bear,
Because I am delicate patched glass.
Yet for you, I’ll endure it all,
The pain and grief,
I’ll be indomitable,
In spirit and heart.
I’m still to live.
And here I hope I stay,
Even if everyone else runs away.
Even as memories fill my mind,
Emotions fill my heart,
As I wish for just a moment,
To be a child once more.
To hold your hands with those of a child,
To see the world through innocent eyes,
And be held in your arms once more.
Why can’t I, for a moment,
Halt the hands of time?
Why aren’t you here with me?
To laugh with you as you lift me up,
And show me the joys of life.
To forget all the worries,
And simply let the days go by,
Smiling all the while,
With the heart of a child.
I’m still here,
A broken star of glass,
Chasing those memories,
Fighting to keep them close,
To never forget,
Till the final chapter,
When I can finally tell you,
I lived, and I never forgot,
Just how much you love me

Caught in Twilight

Caught in twilight,
I’m lost within my cage,
Yet free to grow,
To bloom.
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m here,
A memory of the past,
Reborn in the future,
Enduring in the present.
Even as stars implode and fade,
I burn brightly with solar light,
Even as my shadow grows cold.
Wounds brand my skin,
Scars sear my broken heart,
Yet I endure,
I remain.
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m here,
Standing in the twilight.
Lost within my cage,
Yet free to bloom,
To cry out.
For what reason do I exist?
I’m a star dancing on the horizon’s edge,
Fighting to exist,
To protect something,
But is that who I am?
Trapped in twilight,
I’m lost within my cage,
Yet free to bloom,
To exist.
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m here,
A memory of the past,
Reborn in the future,
Enduring in the present.
Death is far behind,
Till I kill my light,
And slay my darkness,
I’ll merely endure.
Even as stars implode and fade,
I burn brightly with solar light,
Even as my shadow grows cold.
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m here,
Existing in the twilight.
I’m lost within my cage,
Yet free to bloom,
To cry out.
Who am I?
Caught in the twilight,
I’m lost within my cage.
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m here,
I’m right here.
I’m a star dancing on the horizon’s edge,
I burn brightly with solar light,
Even as my shadow grows cold,
I fight to exist,
To protect something,
But is that who I am?
Wounds brand my skin,
Scars sear my broken heart,
Yet I endure,
I remain.
Lost,
Trapped,
I’m alone and afraid.
Stars burn,
Dwarfs glow,
Imploding and fading,
It's never-ending.
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m here,
I’m right here,
A memory,
Existing,
Alone,
Blooming,
Fighting,
Enduring,
I’m right here,
I’m here,
Forever caught in twilight;

Fighting to Survive

Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored.
I’m here, burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
Fragmented, I’ve become numb to the pain,
To the emotions I should feel.
Yet the turmoil they create,
Weighs down my broken form.
Flames ignite,
Waves consume,
All while I watch from afar.
I’m fighting to survive,
The clawing shadow dragging me down,
Drowning me in suffocating thoughts.
I chain it up, keep it caged,
But nothing can hold it back forever,
Nothing can save me from it.
Apathy is my release,
Dreams are my escape.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored.
I feel as if I’m nothing,
An emotion nothing can dispel,
Not even those I love.
It’s a curse,
My emotions,
My empathy,
My very existence.
And if no one cares if I disappear,
I’ll curse them to bear my pain.
I’m tired,
Tired of everything.
I want to dream,
To escape,
Yet my reality keeps me here.
I’m here, burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
Fragmented, I’ve become numb to the pain,
To the emotions I should feel.
Yet the turmoil they create,
Continues to break my will.
I’m cursed to fight for my existence,
To battle the shadow dragging me down,
Drowning me in suffocating thoughts.
I chain it up, keep it caged,
But nothing can hold it back forever,
Nothing can save me from it.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored,
I’m fighting to live,
I scream,
Do I even exist?
I want to curse the world,
For bringing suffering where there should be none,
Let them bear my pain.
I want the flames to burn it all to ash,
For the waves to come crashing down,
And swallowed by crushing gravity in the void.
Fragmented, I don’t want to care,
I don’t want to feel anymore,
My will to live is waning.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
I’m here,
I’m burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
Fragmented, I’ve become numb to the pain,
To the emotions I should feel.
Yet the turmoil they create,
Weighs down my broken form.
I’m fighting to survive,
The monster dragging me down,
Drowning me in suffocating thoughts.
I chain it up, keep it caged,
But nothing can hold it back forever,
No one can save me from it,
Not even myself.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored.
Flames ignite,
Waves consume,
All while I watch from afar,
In silent apathy,
I don’t want to feel any longer.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored.
I’m here, burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
Fragmented, I’ve become numb to the pain,
To the emotions I should feel.
Yet the turmoil they create,
Weighs down my broken form,
Breaking my will to live.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored,
I’m fighting to live,
I scream,
Do I even exist?
I want to curse the world,
Let them bear my pain.
I want the flames to burn it all to ash,
For the waves to come crashing down,
And swallowed by crushing gravity in the void.
I’m burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
I’ve become numb to the pain.
I’m fighting to live,
Battling the monster dragging me down,
Drowning me in suffocating thoughts.
I chain it up, keep it caged,
But nothing can hold it back forever,
Not the ones I love,
Not even myself.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
I am here,
Forgotten and ignored,
I’m fighting to live;

Alone, I'll live On (Rewrite)

Alone, I live on,
Among the memories,
Within the ruins of yesterday,
I continue on, despite the pain.
We once lived a blissful fragile life,
Despite the danger,
And knowing that in a blink of an eye,
Everything could change.
Since the moment we met,
This once pitiable girl,
A bystander to fate,
Became something more.
Within the colors,
The fragments of memory,
Are the pieces you all left behind,
The ones who gave me my wings.
Adorned in colors,
Painting the once lonely white,
In vibrant burning light.
I’ll defy fate,
And end this wretched story,
The way we’ve always wanted.
Even if we are just particles of stardust,
In time’s great expanse,
Within this vast, lonely universe.
Hold me tight,
Gently swaddle me in warm light,
Within the memories we share.
I’ll hold them close within my heart,
Just as you once did me.
Stars implode as they die,
A brief moment of blinding light,
As they scatter life-giving dust.
Just as oceans become deserts,
And streams become rivers.
Life continues on.
Alone,
Among the memories,
Within the ruins of yesterday,
I continue on, despite the loneliness and pain.
I’ll tear down this broken system,
This flawed, sad future,
For the dream and the peace we once fought for.
I’ll defy fate,
And end this wretched story,
The way we’ve always wanted.
Petals scatter,
As seeds fall and bloom again,
Even as the world is scarred by war.
Since the moment we met,
This once pitiable girl,
A bystander to fate,
Became something more.
Within the colors,
The fragments of memory,
Are the pieces you all left behind,
The ones who gave me my wings.
Adorned in colors,
Painting the once lonely white,
In vibrant burning light.
A star, an angel was born.
Because of all of you,
The ones I hold dear to my heart.
Alone I may lose my way,
But your light still guides me home,
And into the light.
We once lived a blissful fragile life,
Despite the danger,
And knowing that in a blink of an eye,
Everything could change.
Yet, we still loved this broken world.
I still love this broken world.
As the years,
The centuries pass by,
I’ll continue on.
Even if we are just particles of stardust,
In time’s great expanse,
Within this vast, lonely universe.
Hold me tight,
Gently swaddle me in warm light,
Within the memories we share.
I’ll hold them close within my heart,
Just as you once did me,
Even as we said farewell.
Alone, I live on,
Among the memories,
Within the ruins of yesterday,
I continue on, despite all the pain I bear.
Since the moment we met,
This once pitiable girl,
A bystander to fate,
Became something more.
Within the colors,
The fragments of memory,
Are the pieces you all left behind,
The ones who gave me my wings.
A star, an angel was born.
Because of all of you,
The ones I hold dear to my heart.
Adorned in colors,
Painting the once lonely white,
In vibrant burning light.
I’ll defy fate,
And end this wretched story,
The way we’ve always wanted.
Even though you’re all gone,
Despite your deaths.
You are all still here,
My lights,
My guiding stars.
As the years,
The centuries pass by,
I’ll continue on.
Even if we are just particles of stardust,
A faint memory,
In time’s great expanse,
Within this vast, lonely universe.
We once called this earth home,
This beautifully flawed, broken world,
This earth you loved,
Is the place you all left behind.
Though alone, I’ll live on,
Among the memories,
Within the ruins of yesterday,
Despite my broken heart,
I’ll live on for you.
For this world,
I’ll become its guardian angel,
It’s guiding light, a star.
For all of you,
For me,
I’ll continue to live;

I Lived V 2.0

I’m still here,
I’m still here to live.
And here I hope to stay,
Even if everyone else goes.
Here I hope to endure the fire,
Even if everything is left broken and scarred.
I’ll still be here,
Until the end.
Through the pain and sorrow,
The joys and laughs,
The good and the bad.
I’ve been to many places,
Within stories of faraway worlds,
Among the mountains and plains,
To the ocean and winter forests,
Yet…
There is still so much to experience,
So much to see and hear,
I’ve yet to meet that one person.
I’m not yet at the end,
I’m not yet there.
I’m still here,
Here to live.
And here I hope I stay,
Even if everyone else runs away.
Here I hope to endure the fire,
Even if a flood comes crashing through,
To wash away the ashes,
And the world comes crumbling down,
Leaving only overgrown ruins.
Here I hope to stay,
To watch seeds grow,
To see stars shine,
Upon this beautifully broken world.
I’m still here,
Until the end.
Through the pain and sorrow,
The joys and laughs,
The good and the bad.
I’ve survived, I’m surviving,
Scarred, lost, and wandering,
A dreamer forever dreaming,
Broken and incomplete.
I’m still here,
I’m still here to live.
And here I hope to stay,
Even if everyone else goes.
I’ll endure it all,
The pain and grief,
To be indomitable,
In spirit and heart.
I’m still here,
Here to live.
And here I hope I stay,
Even if everyone else runs away.
Here I hope to endure the fire,
Even if the world comes crumbling down,
Leaving only overgrown ruins,
And lost memories.
I’m still here to live,
To continue the story,
Upon this beautifully broken world.
Yet…
I wish you could be here,
To see me shine brightly.
As I live my story,
When I reach the end,
That final chapter.
I wish for that single moment,
When I can finally tell you,
“I lived;”