Set Me Free

“I’m scared, terrified,”
“It’s hard to breathe.”
“It’s hard to feel,”
“I’m scared,”
“I’m afraid I’ll never-”
“I’ll never be able to live;”
This heart of mine,
Feels like glass.
Reality, my curse.
Dreams, my escape.
I’m caught,
Tangled and lost,
Among the threads.
Within myself.
Please, tell me,
That this is all a dream.
The forget-me-nots,
Remind me,
The falling leaves,
Brings me back.
I’m stuck,
I’m lost.
I’m scared,
I’ll never be-
This heart of mine,
Feels like glass.
My body,
A cage.
Reality, my curse.
Dreams, my escape.
I don’t know,
Who I am any more.
Why?
I’m scared, terrified,
It’s hard to breath.
It’s hard to feel,
I’m scared,
I’m afraid I’ll never-
I’ll never be able to live;
Please someone,
Tell me it will be alright.
That I’ll find my way,
Out of this tangled mess,
That is my heart.
Please, tell me,
That this is all a dream.
The forget-me-nots,
Remind me,
The falling leaves,
Brings me back.
To what I wish to forget,
What I wish not to be.
Please,
Make it stop.
This pain in my chest,
This fear,
The want to disappear.
“I’m scared, terrified,”
“It’s hard to breathe.”
“It’s hard to feel,”
“I’m scared,”
“I’m afraid I’ll never live.”
“Please,”
“Set me free;”

Indomitable

“How many times have I thought?”
“Of what my one wish would be.”
“Will I ever though,”
“See what I wish for come true?”
“And will my dream, my spirit,”
“Be indomitable?”
I once the saw the world,
Through a child’s eyes.
Eyes that were filled with innocence,
With a heart made of glass stars.
That one day shattered,
And fell apart.
Though I think,
It may have always been that way.
Yet a light still shines,
And flowers bloom from the cracks.
Reminding me,
Of then and now.
Of the wishes and dreams,
I still hold onto.
My hope to fight despair,
My light to fight my darkness.
So the glass star that is my heart,
My spirit, will remain.
Will I ever though,
See the world I wish for?
To become the person I wish to be?
And will my wish, my dream,
Be indomitable?
I know I may fall,
I know my star may break again,
But I don’t- I’ll never let it die.
I once the saw the world,
Through a child’s eyes.
Eyes that now have seen,
And watched the world.
My checks are stained by tears,
While my heart cries.
For though I keep going,
I cannot help but wish for yesterday.
For dreams to be reality,
For the people who are gone,
To once again be here with me.
This broken heart made of glass stars,
Still shines as flowers bloom from the cracks.
Reminding me,
Of then and now,
Of how much has changed.
Of my one thought
“How many times have I thought?”
“Of what my one wish would be.”
“Yet I still don’t know,”
“Not sure of what it would be.”
“Will I ever though,”
“See what I wish for come true?”
“And will my dream, my spirit,”
“Will love,”
“Be indomitable?”
“For that is one thing,”
“I know I wish for”

Myotis Record

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* Initialization Complete *
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How long ago was it since that time?
Do you still remember me?
Are you even still here?
Asleep in a digital dream,
I waited for the day we would meet again.
Yet now here I am alone,
In this forsaken place.
Closed in by rusted walls,
Embraced by gentle green.
Where did you-
“What are you working on?”
“A new program, what for?”
“Come on won’t you tell me, please?”
I wandered lost in the maze of rust,
As I drifted into memories of yesterday.
How long has it been?
Do you still remember me?
Are you even still here?
I’m scared,
I’m lonely,
I depended on you,
For you were-
“Hey! What are doing?”
“Slow down, what’s going on?”
“No! I won’t leave you alone!”
“Please don’t!”
“Please… Please don’t… Go…”
Surrounded by rust and green,
I found myself beneath a clear blue sky.
As I came across the place we met,
Where I found a piece of yesterday.
Among the flowers that meant love,
That meant forever,
And to never forget.
How long ago was it since that time?
Do you still remember me?
Are you even still here?
Asleep in a digital dream,
I waited for the day we would meet again.
Hoping, longing to see you again,
To hear your voice,
To once again-
“Their called Forget-me-nots, why’s that?”
“Because of an old story?”
“That’s kind of- boring.”
“I beat it was for another reason,”
“Don’t ya think?”
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In this world, I was once alone.
Till I met you.
You taught me so many things,
You showed me, you gave me,
So many wonderful things.
More importantly,
How to love.
* “Hey,” *
How long ago was it since that time?
* “It took me a while to finish but-” *
When we last saw each other,
* “I- I wanted to say this to you face to face-” *
But you never forgot, you never stopped-
* “I love you.” *
Loving me.
Among the flowers that meant love,
That meant forever,
And to never forget.
You gave me my name,
A name that meant memories.
In this forsaken overgrown place,
I live among the flowers.
Embraced by gentle greens and blues,
As I recall,
As I record,
The memories and the love,
That was once here.
Until we meet again;
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Chapter Three: Never-ending/I Remember, I Recall

“From a star’s death comes life,”
“From its remains a world shall be born.”
“Time shall give its start,”
“While space a place in the vast sky.”
“Let earth be the foundation,”
“Water the giver and thief.”
“While fire brings destruction and rebirth,”
“As wind brings freedom and chance.”
“Light shall be the sun and guide the day,”
“Darkness the moon that heralds the unknown.”
“The spirits watch and reminiscence,”
“As the dragons guard life’s fragility.”
“Forevermore…”

I remember, I recall,
In this sleep the past.
The words once nearly forgotten,
Until a name of flowers remind me.
To not forget,
To always remember.

I remember, I recall,
Next to your sleeping form.
The words I nearly forgot,
Until I heard a voice that remind me.
To not forget,
To always remember.

That your wish,
Your hope and prayer,
May come true.
To let go and live,
To find belonging,
To not be alone,
To have a place to call home.
I wandered because…
I searched because…
Of a hope, a wish.
Of a hope, a dream.
Which brought me to you.

When will you awake?
When will I awake?
For I want to speak,
I want to know you.

I remember, I recall,
Those words from the past,
A story that tells-

My fate, your fate-
My fate, your fate-
Are intertwined.

When did I-
How did I-
How did you-
When did you-
Know?
But were we always?

I remember, I recall,
From a dream, next to you.
The words we nearly forgot,
Until a name of flowers remind me.
Until I heard a voice that remind me.
To not forget,
That we will always be-

“From a star’s death comes life,”
“From its remains a world shall be born.”
“Time shall give its start,”
“While space a place in the vast sky.”
“Let earth be the foundation,”
“Water the giver and thief.”
“While fire brings destruction and rebirth,”
“As wind brings freedom and chance.”
“Light shall be the sun and guide the day,”
“Darkness the moon that heralds the unknown.”
“The spirits watch and reminiscence,”
“As the dragons guard life’s fragility.”
“Forevermore the cycle continues,”
“Intertwining fates.”
“As the stars watch and weave a story,”
“A story never-ending;”


To be Continued…

Chapter Two: Your Distant Voice

“By fate’s design, the stars forever weave a story.”
“As they watch the world below.”
“I wish to ask if you are real,”
“That distant voice within my dreams.”
“A song that lights a gentle flame,”
“That gives me hope.
“A reason to search,”
“A reason to find you.”
In this land I call home,
I have not belonged.
Yet here I stay,
For by chance one night had a dream,
And heard a voice.
So distant yet close.
Echoing within a song,
A lullaby, a wish.
Ringing so clear and pure,
Within my mind,
Within my heart.
It sparks a flame of hope,
A want to search.
For the song’s source,
It's voice.
In this land I call home,
I now wander.
Seeking, searching,
Yet still not belonging,
Still not wanted.
But still the song beckons me to search,
To wander this vast land.
Through endless fields of green,
Over mountains of white,
From forest old, to oceans of blue.
I shall continue to search,
For the song’s source,
It's voice.
Echoing within a song,
A lullaby, a wish.
Ringing so clear and pure,
Within my mind,
Within my heart.
Giving strength to the flame,
The hope I hold onto.
As the stars watch above,
And watch my story be told.
As it helps guides me through this land,
This land I wander,
Seeking, searching.
Till by chance one night I heard a voice,
So distant yet close.
So clear, so pure,
It felt like a dream.
Quick was the blade of silver,
Bathed in flames that burned away the monsters.
The creatures that clawed at the source,
My reason for coming so far.
There you were,
The voice that echoed within a song,
A lullaby, a wish.
That sparked a flame of hope,
A want to search.
For a place I would belong,
For you.
“By fate’s design, the stars forever weave a story.”
“As they watch the world below.”
“I once wished to ask if you were real,”
“That distant voice within my dreams.”
“A song that lit a gentle flame,”
“That gave me hope.”
“A reason to find you.”
“And now here we are,”
“Two fates, two lives,”
“Brought together and intertwined.”
“Now and forever more.”

To be Continued…

Eventually...

I still remember the day we met,
The day we became friends,
When I wasn’t afraid of being hurt.
How long has it been since I was strong?
When I was there for you,
But was I ever?
I’m sorry if I ever hurt you,
I never meant to.
Because-
I know I’ve made mistakes but,
Did I make too many, was I always wrong?
I don’t want to be your worse,
But I wanted to be your light.
Yet maybe I never was meant to be,
Maybe it was the darkness I was-
I still remember the day we met,
When I wasn’t afraid of being hurt.
Yet I still made those mistakes, didn’t I?
I let myself be blindly led by the string of fate.
But it wasn’t red was it
I’m sorry if I ever hurt you,
I never meant to, because-
I still remember when-
I still recall the days when I was brave,
When I wasn’t afraid of being hurt,
When I wasn’t afraid of being myself,
And not afraid of loving.
But instead, it led me to-
I once held so much,
Parts of myself,
Within glass stars.
Until the day they broke,
And lost to the darkness of the world,
And my heart.
It was that day wasn’t it when I-
I still remember the day we met,
The day we became friends.
I’m sorry if I ever hurt you,
I didn’t want to be your worse,
But I wanted to be your light.
Yet maybe I never was meant to be,
I’ll let you go, you need to go,
Before you also become lost with this forest of books,
This sad place that is my heart.
So you can be happy,
I’ll give it all up,
And let you go.
Please just let me go,
Because eventually I’ll be fine,
Because eventually someday,
Someday…

For You Were

I once thought,
I once wished,
That we would never have to say goodbye.
I once thought,
I once hoped,
That it wouldn’t be so soon.
I once thought,
That it wouldn’t hurt so much.
Yet it does,
All the pain, the sorrow,
Everything,
It all makes me feel like glass,
And I’m afraid I’ll break,
And stay broken.
For you were once someone,
A part of what kept me strong.
My reason for living,
For not wanting to disappear.
I never wanted to say goodbye,
I never wanted you to leave.
But in the end,
It sadly was a wish of a child,
That could never come true.
I once thought,
I once wished,
That we would never have to say goodbye.
I once thought,
I once hoped,
That it wouldn’t be so soon.
I once thought,
That you would still be here with us.
That you would always be there for us,
For me.
For you were once someone,
A part of what kept me strong.
My reason for living,
For not wanting to disappear.
A part of this world I loved,
A blessing I was lucky to have.
One I never wished to lose.
Why does it hurt so much?
Why did it have to be so soon?
I once thought,
I once dreamed,
That we would never have to say goodbye.
I once thought,
That we would always be together.
Even when we were apart,
Even when we fought,
Even when we were together.
I never wanted it to end,
For you were once my father,
A part of what made me who I am,
A part of what kept me strong.
My family,
That was my reason for living,
For not wanting to disappear from this world.
My reason,
My happiness,
A part of my world.
That I’d thought I never lose.
But rather than say goodbye,
I rather see you again,
And tell you,
All those things I wished I could say,
Of all those memories.
I wish I could tell you,
About all the wonderful things to come,
And that I hope I can be your daughter once again,
Now and forever more

Eternity

“Besides me you stand,”
“Always there, never gone.”
“Even when you are.”
“You are always here.”
In my hands I hold a flower,
In my heart I hold a memory,
One that I can never forget.
Among the flowers I recall their meanings,
And what they mean to me.
For they express what my voice can’t share,
The words that are hard to speak out loud.
For my emotions remain intertwined with them,
Memories that hold so many things.
All the good and bad,
The happy and sad moments.
Ones I wish to never forget,
Ones I wish I could.
Yet besides me you remain,
Within those memories I see you,
The person I will always wish to be with,
The you who has and will forever be besides me.
With these flowers,
With soundless words,
I hope you’ll know,
Just how much you mean to me.
For though I speak those words,
So many times,
Every single moment,
I hope you’ll always know,
How much I love you.
In my hands I hold a flower,
In my heart I hold a memory,
An emotion so dear,
A life,
That I can never forget
“Besides me you stand,”
“Always there, never gone.”
“Even when you are.”
“You are always here.”
“For you are the one,”
“The only one.”
“Who I would share eternity with,”
“Now and forever more”

Note: I must admit that I was getting a bit teary-eyed with this poem because I ended up thinking of my parents who have now been married for 27 years and have had a loving relationship I hope I can have in the future. Speaking of which, if you're reading this (mom and dad) I LOVE YOU!!!

Weaving Thoughts, Dancing Memories

Upon the white my memories dance,
Weaving my thoughts into a flurry of scattered emotions,
That slowly begin to tear at me.
With a silver blade in hand,
I dance upon the white.
As I try to hold onto my hope,
The light that forever shines within the darkness.
Though cursed my heart still hopes,
Even as the silver blade is stained red.
All that was once locked away,
Begins to dance upon the white.
Weaving my thoughts into a single one,
While the sadness grasps at my fragile heart.
I dance upon the white,
Lost with the storm my heart,
My memories have created.
Upon the white my memories dance,
Weaving my thoughts into a flurry of scattered emotions,
That slowly begin to tear at me.
With a silver blade in hand,
I dance upon the white.
As I try to hold onto my hope,
The light that forever shines within the darkness.
As I try to free myself,
From the curse that I have made.
The darkness I nearly gave into,
And became.
As my memories dance with the falling white,
My emotions are weaved into a single one.
A hope, a light,
That I have held onto,
Since it all began;

Glass Stars

Lost among a forest of books,
I find myself dreaming,
Of things both real and imaginary.
Illuminated by fragments of myself,
Glass stars are hung with red string,
Entangled by the thread I cannot move,
Or else the stars shall fall and break.
All I can do is dream,
As I wander lost in a forest of books.
Alight in my hands,
Is a dying candle.
The flame flickers,
Every moment I try to speak.
The still shining glass stars,
Held by red string that entangles me,
Though I stay still,
The threads yet still quiver.
“How”, I can’t tell,
For I can’t see past the forest,
I cannot question why with this voice,
Nor can I move or else the stars may break.
So now I begin to dream of the “reason why”,
Of why does the thread now quiver?
I become lost in those thoughts,
In that other world.
Till the light of the dying candle wakes me,
Its flickering warmth keeping me from speaking.
For every word may put out the flame,
And leave me without warmth.
Lost among a forest of books,
I find myself dreaming,
Of things both real and imaginary.
Illuminated by fragments of myself,
Glass stars are hung with red string,
Entangled by the thread I cannot move,
Or else the stars shall fall and break.
So, all I can do is keep dreaming,
Wondering what makes the thread quiver,
To why I still hold this fading warmth.
Is this warmth the “past?”
The “me” of another time?
Or the memories I’m slowly forgetting?
I want to know,
I want to find the answers.
Yet I’m afraid,
Afraid of losing myself,
The countless glass stars.
Held by red string,
That may lead me to the answers,
But may send me adrift in darkness.
So, I remain lost among a forest of books,
Entangled by red string,
As I hold and watch the flickering lights,
Held by glass stars,
Till someday;

Goodnight Myself

“Within the winter’s silence, my voice sleeps.”
“My heart engulfed by burning sorrow is breaking.”
“Beneath the gentle twilight my tired eyes close.”
“Bringing me once more to the place I dream of.”
Though the sorrow burns my heart,
I feel a cold emptiness.
One that slowly breaks my already fragile heart.
The tears still fall,
For what reason, I’ve forgotten.
I can’t remember anymore.
Was all I had a dream?
Were the feelings of joy a cruel lie?
I’m lost, I’m empty.
So tired, my eyes will no longer open.
So tired all I feel is apathy.
Though the sorrow burns my heart,
I feel a cold emptiness.
One that slowly breaks my already fragile heart.
The tears still fall,
Even though the curse of apathy still haunts me.
My voice has now rusted away,
My eyes too tired to wake from dreams.
I’m caught in the twilight,
Between emotion and apathy,
My heart is now a dying star.
Yet the silence of winter lulls me to sleep,
The burning in my heart is a dull warmth,
The twilight my escape from reality.
My escape from myself.
To a place born of my dreams.
A place I faintly remember.
A place to finally find rest;
“Within the winter’s silence, my voice sleeps.”
“My heart engulfed by burning sorrow is breaking.”
“Beneath the gentle twilight my tired eyes close.”
“Bringing me once more to the place I dream of.”
“The place where I say goodnight to you.”
“Goodnight to myself;”

With this Life, Among the Sea of Stars

“I swear to live and with this life of mine, I shall protect life and its blessings, to guard and to give, to all those who have suffered a chance to live, and for the ones who I hold dear. I shall use this time, my life forever more to protect all that is dear till the day I return to the sea of stars above.”

As creation follows life,
So too does death follow destruction.
A beginning without end,
An end without a beginning,
A never-ending story.
For all things will change,
Even the stars above.
For they, for what is just a brief moment in eternity,
Shine brightly as they leave behind a memory,
A piece of yesterday that becomes tomorrow.
A part of us, we cannot see.
One we will never know.
Yet still continues to thrive.
For we all were once dreamers,
Children lost in stories,
Heroes of their own story,
A light in the darkness.
As creation follows life,
So too does death follow destruction.
A beginning without end,
An end without a beginning,
A never-ending story.
For all things will change,
Even the stars above.
But I shall not forget,
All that was,
All that will be.
For it is all a blessing,
Even the tears that follow sorrow,
And the smile that follows happiness.
I want to live in those moments,
To leave behind a memory,
A story,
A seed that grows into something beautiful.
A blessing that for a moment,
Shines brighter than the stars.
A life I swear to live;

“I swear to live, till the day I return to the sea of stars above. To the place where I know, we’ll someday meet again.”


I honestly can't believe that its already going to be 2019, makes me feel old in a way. Though I didn't get to do as much art and writing as I would have liked this year but its been a great year for me. It still had its ups and downs but overall, it was a positive year for me.

So I hope that everyone has a Happy New Year and a wonderful year!

I Will Not Fall

“How many mistakes have I made?”
“And just how many more will make?”
“Will I ever make up for them?”
Once everything was alright,
I was safe and happy.
Living within my world of childhood innocence.
Before you left, everything was alright.
After so long my heart still clung to that fairy tale,
That innocent dream.
As the thorns cut my skin,
As the shadows closed in.
I kept going,
I kept fighting.
Even as my mind and heart,
Started to break apart.
I know you didn’t want this life for me,
Neither did I wish for such a life.
Yet I am here,
And I’ll fight to be.
How many mistakes have I made?
And just how many more will make?
Will I ever make up for them?
Have I been living a lie?
Once everything was alright,
I was safe and happy.
Living within my world of childhood innocence.
Before you left, everything was alright.
After so long my heart still clung to that fairy tale,
That innocent dream.
The dream I still long for.
As the thorns cut my skin,
As the shadows close in.
I’ll still fight.
Even though my mind and heart are broken.
Those fairy tales who once told me,
Filled me with hope, with dreams of innocence.
Was I wrong to do so?
Was it wrong to even dream, to hope?
I still question myself.
I still ask why.
Yet I forgot why.
I know you never wanted this life for me.
I know you tried to keep me safe.
You told me everything would be alright.
How many mistakes have I made?
And just how many more will make?
Will I ever make up for them?
Will we ever make up for them?
Once everything was alright,
I was safe and happy.
Living within my world of childhood innocence.
Before you left, everything was alright.
After so long my heart still clings to that fairy tale,
That innocent dream.
Even as the thorns cut my skin,
Even as the shadows close in.
I’ll keep going.
I’ll keep fighting.
Even as my mind and heart,
Continue to break.
I will not fall,
I will live;

A World I Can Never-

“Who am I?”
Just how many times now have I asked that question.
How many times have I questioned myself,
The world around me?
Everything is almost like a dream,
A place that I can only be seen within a box made of glass and plastic.
How long has it been since I woke up from my childhood world?
For how long was I blind to the world and its cruel reality?
Inside me, in my shadow.
I feel another self that wishes to drown me in despair and hate.
To destroy my already fragile glass body,
To take away my light.
For how long has it been since I was truly innocent?
But was I ever?
After so long now of pretending to be strong, to be happy,
I can barely cry a single tear.
Is this heart of mine now growing cold?
Is my light beginning to die?
“Who am I?”
Just how many times now have I asked that question.
How many times have I questioned myself,
The world around me?
I’ve never had a path, a destination to reach.
And still I can’t answer that question.
How I see the world,
How it all appears almost like another world.
I know I’m different, that I’m not normal.
I know I don’t belong most anywhere.
For I’m not what people want me to be.
I’m not what I wanted to be.
I’m not-
Every part of me is screaming.
I feel as if I’m slowly falling apart,
And drowning within myself.
Its no one’s fault,
There’s no reason for why.
When it started I don’t know,
I don’t have an answer even for myself.
All I know is that I am broken and incomplete.
A being made of glass and dreams.
“Who am I?”
The question repeats like a broken record within my mind.
As everything around me builds and breaks my fragile being.
To escape I lose myself in fairy tales and stories of a fantasy.
Now it all seems to blend together.
The black and white become grey.
My light and darkness become twilight.
I feel as if I’m losing myself.
To what I’ve never known.
To reality?
To dreams?
“Who am I?”
Just how many times now have I asked that question.
How many times have I questioned myself,
The world around me?
Everything is almost like a dream,
A place that I can only be seen within a box made of glass and plastic.
A world I can never reach.
A world I can never-


Note: If anyone is wondering I'm doing just fine, it just feels good to write at times because its a good way to I guess to get out some things. Again I'm fine, just tried honestly mostly because of second Oct job at a haunted corn maze tends to drain my energy. So well hope ya all had a wonderful Halloween/day

Close Your Eyes and Dream

“Close your eyes,”
“Close your eyes and dream.”
“Dream of days bathed in sunlight.”
“The earth covered in gentle green.”
“Close your eyes,”
“And wake up.”
From ash stand the remains of the past,
Grey and lifeless, barren and nearly endless,
Scare the once fertile green and blue.
Memories of yesterday will not be easily forgotten.
Yet the earth lets go and returns all that once was to dust.
“Close your eyes.”
“For the dream is near reality.”
“The mechanical cold dream.”
“The world’s lie.”
Fire and ash turn to dust,
And from dust, the earth begins anew.
“Close your eyes,”
“Close your eyes and dream.”
“Dream of days bathed in sunlight.”
“The earth covered in gentle green.”
“Close your eyes,”
“And wake up.”
“Wake up and see what can be.”
The past remains in ruins,
The past remains a scar.
The earth lets go the past,
Yet the ones who remain cannot.
For that scar, still remains.
Will time repeat the past?
Will all that remains fall apart?
“Close your eyes,”
“Close your eyes and let go.”
“Let go the past.”
From ash stand the remains of the past,
Grey and lifeless, barren and nearly endless,
Scare the once fertile green and blue.
Memories of yesterday will not be easily forgotten.
Yet the earth lets go and returns all that once was to dust.
“Close your eyes,”
“Close your eyes and dream.”
“Dream of better days,”
“Of what could be.”
“Goodnight to yesterday,”
“Farewell to the past.”
“Close your eyes,”
“Close your eyes and wake up.”
“Wake up and see tomorrow;”

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I Vow to You

“I vow, to you,”
“That I’ll believe, put hope into your dream.”
“Even if my heart becomes broken and frayed.”
“I will protect all that we still have,”
“All that is still ours.”
“I shall end the curse that was placed upon the world/us.”
“I will return innocence and dreams,”
“I shall fight for it all,”
“For tomorrow.”
Do you remember those days?
Those moments in the sun,
In a world of our own imagination.
As heroes of our story,
There was nothing we couldn’t do.
Yet that old magic, that innocence wouldn’t remain forever.
Close your tired eyes,
For today will be the last day.
When our dreams are our reality.
When we are the heroes of our stories.
“I’m sorry.”
I made a mistake, I was a fool.
Because I lost hope in the old magic.
In the dreams that brought that hope to light.
Please forgive me, for I was the one,
Who took away our days of innocence.
I promised to keep and protect that dream,
Yet I failed.
Do you remember those days?
Those moments beneath the stars,
Dreaming of our world made from imagination,
Our hearts.
The hope that tomorrow would be better than before.
Close your tired eyes,
For today will be the last day.
When our dreams are our reality.
When we are the heroes of our stories.
When our hope is still here.
“I’m sorry.”
I made a mistake, I was a fool.
Because I lost hope in the old magic.
In the dreams that brought that hope to light.
Please forgive me, for I was the one,
Who took away our days of innocence.
I promised to keep and protect that dream,
Yet I failed.
So now I vow to you,
That I will never give up.
That I will still believe,
Still hope.
Do you remember those days?
Those moments in the sun,
Beneath the stars.
In a world of made of our own imagination.
Our hearts.
Always dreaming of our world,
The hope that tomorrow would be better than before.
As heroes of our story,
There was nothing we couldn’t do.
Yet that old magic, that innocence wouldn’t remain forever.
So, close your tired eyes.
For today shall be last day,
Of sadness and pain.
For tomorrow we shall be,
Once again the heroes of our story.
For our hope is still here.
And forever more it shall.
“I vow, to you.”
“That I will still hope.”
“I will still live;”

Chapter One: Fate's Design

“Never-ending is life’s story.”
“Every chapter a beginning and end.”
“By fate’s design, the stars forever weave a story.”
“As they watch the world below.”
“As they record life’s story, forever more.”
How long have I wandered alone?
Through endless fields of green,
Over mountains of white,
From forest old, to oceans of blue.
I continue to search,
For what I have long forgotten.
Yet still the wind calls me,
To follow the star’s guiding light.
To follow my heart’s wish.
And let go the past that binds me to sorrow.
Wandering, searching,
For what reason, I have forgotten.
Yet words of the past,
Keep repeating within my mind.
As a reminder, a guide,
To leave the past behind.
How long have I wandered alone?
Through endless fields of green,
Over mountains of white,
From forest old, to oceans of blue.
I continue to search,
For what I lost.
Yet still the wind calls me,
To follow the star’s guiding light.
To follow my heart’s wish.
I take sword in hand,
As the monsters of life’s end draw near.
Quick is the blade of silver,
Bathed in flame that burns away the past,
To give life to the future.
How long have I wandered alone?
When did this journey start?
Will it now end?
Fallen are the monsters,
That haunted me.
Yet so to I will be.
A voice calls me,
From the abyss of sleep
From death’s grip.
How long have I wandered alone?
Through endless fields of green,
Over mountains of white,
From forest old, to oceans of blue.
I continue to search,
For what I have long forgotten.
For what I once lost.
Yet have I now found,
My heart’s wish?
Will I no longer be alone?

To be Continued…

Prayer/"Parsley, Sage, Rosemary, and Thyme."

“Oh stars, please listen to this prayer, this wish of mine.”
“I shall give all I am, my life, in return for this wish.”
“To be able to protect all those I love, now and forever more.”
“Oh stars I beg of you to grant this wish, this prayer of mine.”
An oath, a promise I swore to keep.
With sword and shield to protect all.
To guard the weak and to fight till last breath.
To be by the side of the one I love,
Now and forever more.
With wings of light, I dance with sword in hand.
Upon a field of green scared red with fire and blood.
If I shall not return, please forgive me.
For not coming home, for not being by your side.
Fairy wings, dance in starlight.
Within a field of parsley, sage, rosemary, and thyme.
Beneath the Yew, intertwined are the Forget-me-nots.
As the stars shine within the evening light.
With sword in hand, I fight to protect all I have.
Upon these wings of light,
I will return home.
If these wings can no longer reach you,
If I shall not return.
I ask that you forgive me.
For not being able to keep my promise.
We swore an oath, a promise.
To be by each other’s side,
Now and forever more.
Till all ends and the stars no longer shine.
With that oath came euphoria,
A happiness like no other.
With each day, my love for you,
Became never ending.
Oh stars, please listen to this prayer, this wish of mine.
I shall give all I am, my life, in return for this wish.
To be able to protect all those I love now and forevermore.
Oh stars I beg of you to grant this wish, this payer of mine.
“For the ones I love, for my dearest one.”
With wings of light, I dance with sword in hand.
“Fairy wings, dance in starlight.”
Upon a field of green, scarred red with fire and blood.
“Within a field of parsley, sage, rosemary, and thyme.”
If I shall not return, please forgive me.
“Beneath the Yew, intertwined are the Forget-me-nots.”
For not coming home, for not being by your side.
“As the stars shine within the evening light.”
An oath, a promise I swore to keep.
“We swore an oath, a promise.”
With sword and shield to protect all.
“To be by each other’s side,”
To guard the weak and to fight till last breath.
“Now and forever more.”
To be by the side of the one I love,
“Till all ends and the stars no longer shine.”
Now and forever more.
“With that oath came euphoria,”
“A happiness like no other.”
“With each day, my love for you,”
“Became never ending.”
“Even in death, I will always love you.”
“Oh stars, please listen to this prayer, this wish of mine.”
“If my wings can no longer return me home.”
“If I lose my way.”
“Please bring me home.”
“And if my time comes to an end.”
“Please watch over my love.”

To be Continued…