I Will Not Fall

“How many mistakes have I made?”
“And just how many more will make?”
“Will I ever make up for them?”
Once everything was alright,
I was safe and happy.
Living within my world of childhood innocence.
Before you left, everything was alright.
After so long my heart still clung to that fairy tale,
That innocent dream.
As the thorns cut my skin,
As the shadows closed in.
I kept going,
I kept fighting.
Even as my mind and heart,
Started to break apart.
I know you didn’t want this life for me,
Neither did I wish for such a life.
Yet I am here,
And I’ll fight to be.
How many mistakes have I made?
And just how many more will make?
Will I ever make up for them?
Have I been living a lie?
Once everything was alright,
I was safe and happy.
Living within my world of childhood innocence.
Before you left, everything was alright.
After so long my heart still clung to that fairy tale,
That innocent dream.
The dream I still long for.
As the thorns cut my skin,
As the shadows close in.
I’ll still fight.
Even though my mind and heart are broken.
Those fairy tales who once told me,
Filled me with hope, with dreams of innocence.
Was I wrong to do so?
Was it wrong to even dream, to hope?
I still question myself.
I still ask why.
Yet I forgot why.
I know you never wanted this life for me.
I know you tried to keep me safe.
You told me everything would be alright.
How many mistakes have I made?
And just how many more will make?
Will I ever make up for them?
Will we ever make up for them?
Once everything was alright,
I was safe and happy.
Living within my world of childhood innocence.
Before you left, everything was alright.
After so long my heart still clings to that fairy tale,
That innocent dream.
Even as the thorns cut my skin,
Even as the shadows close in.
I’ll keep going.
I’ll keep fighting.
Even as my mind and heart,
Continue to break.
I will not fall,
I will live;