"If I could have only one wish come true", I've repeated those words over and over again. But as I think that I'm getting closer to the answer, it fades like a piece of paper floating on the wind.
When I look back at my old self, I see my mistakes and my achievements. The days I wish I could relive and I could forever forget. As I look at myself, I see a strong and kind person, who want's and gives joy but also wants to disappear.
"I'm nothing but a liar", those words seem to always ring true. I know that I'm imperfect, rash, still young and sometimes foolish. And I know that I have, "Something that makes some things hard." But yet I still want to try to live, the life I want. Since I'm not like everyone else I do things differently but sadly, others don't seem to ever try to see the true me.
"Hey! Look what I made!" I show something I worked hard on. But it's mostly ignored like the rest of me. I give a smile, my last piece of candy, my own happiness. To the ones I love or to another who needs a smile. Even though I do this and it gives me a bit of happiness, I still dislike being with others.
I love and hate, I wish and dream. I want to protect; those I love but also to destroy this stupid world. I know what that sounds like, but yet I can't help it. Because my breaking heart is still filled with love.
I've always been bad at, sharing things with others. So I put my thoughts and emotions, on a piece of paper or in a song. I may be just a foolish young girl, who dreams of love and has her head in the clouds. But yet life seems to like toying with me.
"If I disappear, would anyone miss me?", those words sting me like a knife in my chest. If I could build a time machine, and go into the future. Would my future be a happy one?
Oh stars above please listen, if my sadness and loneliness. Brings to another happiness and love, then please oh please. Let me fall into eternal sleep or tell me that it’s not true. And that in the end it will all be worth it.
Oh stars above if I am too a star, that brings happiness. "A hero" that will change the world or save someone's future, my own. Then maybe I'll try harder to be myself and live the life that I truly want.
"If I could have only one wish come true", I do not know yet what that wish may be. I'm still dreaming, wishing and hoping. I'm both sad and happy, but maybe one day. The wish I do not yet know in mind, may one day come true.
I do not know who I truly am yet, I am young and feel like am alone. But I guess in the end these once unspoken words were needed to be said, to be spoken so, they won't be said again.
