A World I Can Never-

“Who am I?”
Just how many times now have I asked that question.
How many times have I questioned myself,
The world around me?
Everything is almost like a dream,
A place that I can only be seen within a box made of glass and plastic.
How long has it been since I woke up from my childhood world?
For how long was I blind to the world and its cruel reality?
Inside me, in my shadow.
I feel another self that wishes to drown me in despair and hate.
To destroy my already fragile glass body,
To take away my light.
For how long has it been since I was truly innocent?
But was I ever?
After so long now of pretending to be strong, to be happy,
I can barely cry a single tear.
Is this heart of mine now growing cold?
Is my light beginning to die?
“Who am I?”
Just how many times now have I asked that question.
How many times have I questioned myself,
The world around me?
I’ve never had a path, a destination to reach.
And still I can’t answer that question.
How I see the world,
How it all appears almost like another world.
I know I’m different, that I’m not normal.
I know I don’t belong most anywhere.
For I’m not what people want me to be.
I’m not what I wanted to be.
I’m not-
Every part of me is screaming.
I feel as if I’m slowly falling apart,
And drowning within myself.
Its no one’s fault,
There’s no reason for why.
When it started I don’t know,
I don’t have an answer even for myself.
All I know is that I am broken and incomplete.
A being made of glass and dreams.
“Who am I?”
The question repeats like a broken record within my mind.
As everything around me builds and breaks my fragile being.
To escape I lose myself in fairy tales and stories of a fantasy.
Now it all seems to blend together.
The black and white become grey.
My light and darkness become twilight.
I feel as if I’m losing myself.
To what I’ve never known.
To reality?
To dreams?
“Who am I?”
Just how many times now have I asked that question.
How many times have I questioned myself,
The world around me?
Everything is almost like a dream,
A place that I can only be seen within a box made of glass and plastic.
A world I can never reach.
A world I can never-


Note: If anyone is wondering I'm doing just fine, it just feels good to write at times because its a good way to I guess to get out some things. Again I'm fine, just tried honestly mostly because of second Oct job at a haunted corn maze tends to drain my energy. So well hope ya all had a wonderful Halloween/day

Close Your Eyes and Dream

“Close your eyes,”
“Close your eyes and dream.”
“Dream of days bathed in sunlight.”
“The earth covered in gentle green.”
“Close your eyes,”
“And wake up.”
From ash stand the remains of the past,
Grey and lifeless, barren and nearly endless,
Scare the once fertile green and blue.
Memories of yesterday will not be easily forgotten.
Yet the earth lets go and returns all that once was to dust.
“Close your eyes.”
“For the dream is near reality.”
“The mechanical cold dream.”
“The world’s lie.”
Fire and ash turn to dust,
And from dust, the earth begins anew.
“Close your eyes,”
“Close your eyes and dream.”
“Dream of days bathed in sunlight.”
“The earth covered in gentle green.”
“Close your eyes,”
“And wake up.”
“Wake up and see what can be.”
The past remains in ruins,
The past remains a scar.
The earth lets go the past,
Yet the ones who remain cannot.
For that scar, still remains.
Will time repeat the past?
Will all that remains fall apart?
“Close your eyes,”
“Close your eyes and let go.”
“Let go the past.”
From ash stand the remains of the past,
Grey and lifeless, barren and nearly endless,
Scare the once fertile green and blue.
Memories of yesterday will not be easily forgotten.
Yet the earth lets go and returns all that once was to dust.
“Close your eyes,”
“Close your eyes and dream.”
“Dream of better days,”
“Of what could be.”
“Goodnight to yesterday,”
“Farewell to the past.”
“Close your eyes,”
“Close your eyes and wake up.”
“Wake up and see tomorrow;”

This poem was inspired by this awesome bit of music, hope you enjoy it!
https://youtu.be/hrJkaYDAKW0

I Vow to You

“I vow, to you,”
“That I’ll believe, put hope into your dream.”
“Even if my heart becomes broken and frayed.”
“I will protect all that we still have,”
“All that is still ours.”
“I shall end the curse that was placed upon the world/us.”
“I will return innocence and dreams,”
“I shall fight for it all,”
“For tomorrow.”
Do you remember those days?
Those moments in the sun,
In a world of our own imagination.
As heroes of our story,
There was nothing we couldn’t do.
Yet that old magic, that innocence wouldn’t remain forever.
Close your tired eyes,
For today will be the last day.
When our dreams are our reality.
When we are the heroes of our stories.
“I’m sorry.”
I made a mistake, I was a fool.
Because I lost hope in the old magic.
In the dreams that brought that hope to light.
Please forgive me, for I was the one,
Who took away our days of innocence.
I promised to keep and protect that dream,
Yet I failed.
Do you remember those days?
Those moments beneath the stars,
Dreaming of our world made from imagination,
Our hearts.
The hope that tomorrow would be better than before.
Close your tired eyes,
For today will be the last day.
When our dreams are our reality.
When we are the heroes of our stories.
When our hope is still here.
“I’m sorry.”
I made a mistake, I was a fool.
Because I lost hope in the old magic.
In the dreams that brought that hope to light.
Please forgive me, for I was the one,
Who took away our days of innocence.
I promised to keep and protect that dream,
Yet I failed.
So now I vow to you,
That I will never give up.
That I will still believe,
Still hope.
Do you remember those days?
Those moments in the sun,
Beneath the stars.
In a world of made of our own imagination.
Our hearts.
Always dreaming of our world,
The hope that tomorrow would be better than before.
As heroes of our story,
There was nothing we couldn’t do.
Yet that old magic, that innocence wouldn’t remain forever.
So, close your tired eyes.
For today shall be last day,
Of sadness and pain.
For tomorrow we shall be,
Once again the heroes of our story.
For our hope is still here.
And forever more it shall.
“I vow, to you.”
“That I will still hope.”
“I will still live;”

Chapter One: Fate's Design

“Never-ending is life’s story.”
“Every chapter a beginning and end.”
“By fate’s design, the stars forever weave a story.”
“As they watch the world below.”
“As they record life’s story, forever more.”
How long have I wandered alone?
Through endless fields of green,
Over mountains of white,
From forest old, to oceans of blue.
I continue to search,
For what I have long forgotten.
Yet still the wind calls me,
To follow the star’s guiding light.
To follow my heart’s wish.
And let go the past that binds me to sorrow.
Wandering, searching,
For what reason, I have forgotten.
Yet words of the past,
Keep repeating within my mind.
As a reminder, a guide,
To leave the past behind.
How long have I wandered alone?
Through endless fields of green,
Over mountains of white,
From forest old, to oceans of blue.
I continue to search,
For what I lost.
Yet still the wind calls me,
To follow the star’s guiding light.
To follow my heart’s wish.
I take sword in hand,
As the monsters of life’s end draw near.
Quick is the blade of silver,
Bathed in flame that burns away the past,
To give life to the future.
How long have I wandered alone?
When did this journey start?
Will it now end?
Fallen are the monsters,
That haunted me.
Yet so to I will be.
A voice calls me,
From the abyss of sleep
From death’s grip.
How long have I wandered alone?
Through endless fields of green,
Over mountains of white,
From forest old, to oceans of blue.
I continue to search,
For what I have long forgotten.
For what I once lost.
Yet have I now found,
My heart’s wish?
Will I no longer be alone?

To be Continued…

Prayer/"Parsley, Sage, Rosemary, and Thyme."

“Oh stars, please listen to this prayer, this wish of mine.”
“I shall give all I am, my life, in return for this wish.”
“To be able to protect all those I love, now and forever more.”
“Oh stars I beg of you to grant this wish, this prayer of mine.”
An oath, a promise I swore to keep.
With sword and shield to protect all.
To guard the weak and to fight till last breath.
To be by the side of the one I love,
Now and forever more.
With wings of light, I dance with sword in hand.
Upon a field of green scared red with fire and blood.
If I shall not return, please forgive me.
For not coming home, for not being by your side.
Fairy wings, dance in starlight.
Within a field of parsley, sage, rosemary, and thyme.
Beneath the Yew, intertwined are the Forget-me-nots.
As the stars shine within the evening light.
With sword in hand, I fight to protect all I have.
Upon these wings of light,
I will return home.
If these wings can no longer reach you,
If I shall not return.
I ask that you forgive me.
For not being able to keep my promise.
We swore an oath, a promise.
To be by each other’s side,
Now and forever more.
Till all ends and the stars no longer shine.
With that oath came euphoria,
A happiness like no other.
With each day, my love for you,
Became never ending.
Oh stars, please listen to this prayer, this wish of mine.
I shall give all I am, my life, in return for this wish.
To be able to protect all those I love now and forevermore.
Oh stars I beg of you to grant this wish, this payer of mine.
“For the ones I love, for my dearest one.”
With wings of light, I dance with sword in hand.
“Fairy wings, dance in starlight.”
Upon a field of green, scarred red with fire and blood.
“Within a field of parsley, sage, rosemary, and thyme.”
If I shall not return, please forgive me.
“Beneath the Yew, intertwined are the Forget-me-nots.”
For not coming home, for not being by your side.
“As the stars shine within the evening light.”
An oath, a promise I swore to keep.
“We swore an oath, a promise.”
With sword and shield to protect all.
“To be by each other’s side,”
To guard the weak and to fight till last breath.
“Now and forever more.”
To be by the side of the one I love,
“Till all ends and the stars no longer shine.”
Now and forever more.
“With that oath came euphoria,”
“A happiness like no other.”
“With each day, my love for you,”
“Became never ending.”
“Even in death, I will always love you.”
“Oh stars, please listen to this prayer, this wish of mine.”
“If my wings can no longer return me home.”
“If I lose my way.”
“Please bring me home.”
“And if my time comes to an end.”
“Please watch over my love.”

To be Continued…

Awake/Revival

“When did it all start?”
“This never-ending cycle of hate and despair.”
“We made a wish of innocence,”
“That was born from a dream.”
“And it was life’s cruel reality,”
“That turned it into a nightmare.”
“A cursed wish.”
Now I awake I ask myself,
“What should I now do?”
I was lost, trapped by a cursed dream.
A place between reality and sleep.
Yet still, everything is broken.
I’m still broken, but I’m still here.
I gave up, I let myself become lost.
The choices I made,
Was I myself then?
Still I’ve forgotten, I’ve lost a part of myself.
Yet I’m hoping, I’m wishing.
For a miracle, a light to guide me from despair,
To break myself free.
I’m sorry for nearly forgetting,
For almost not believing in your dream.
Can you forgive me?
The fire that lit inside me,
I’ll now use to fight free.
From the curse of this world,
From myself.
I’m still broken, but I’m still here.
No longer can my innocence return,
That time is now the past.
I was lost, trapped by a cursed dream.
A place between reality and sleep.
I gave up, I let myself become lost.
The choices I made,
Was I myself then?
I’m now awake,
Free from that cursed boundary,
That broken place.
My broken self.
I know now that it was my fault,
Because it was me who cursed my own wish.
And nearly destroyed yours.
It was my fault,
I was the one who nearly chose,
To destroy everything, I once loved.
“In a dream we lived,”
“Born from fairy tales,”
“A forgotten magic.”
“Yet was it wrong to dream?”
“Were we fools to trust those lies?”
Yet I’m hoping, I’m wishing.
For a miracle, for the old magic to return. 
Even if I’m fool, for you I’ll now make a wish.
For a light to guide us from despair,
To break myself free,
To protect your dream.
For you, for myself,
I vow, to you,
That I’ll believe, put hope into your dream.
Even if my heart becomes broken and frayed.
I protect all that we still have,
All that is still ours.
I shall the curse that was placed upon the world/us.
I will return innocence and dreams,
I shall fight for it all,
For tomorrow;

Would you listen...

“If I told you a story, would you listen?”
“If I spoke, would you listen?”
“If I stood in the same room as you, would you notice me?”
“If I was gone, would you miss me?”
I once dreamed of happy days, of what could be,
Of who I would be.
My innocence was a blessing,
My childhood self was free,
And magic was real.
When did it happen?
When did I break?
When did I lose my innocence?
Why did it happen?
I’ve forgotten, I’ve lost a part of myself.
Why?
What cause it to happen?
What turned my dreams into a curse?
What was it that took the freedom of childhood self?
I once dreamed of happy days, of what could be,
Of who I would be.
Of who you could be.
Was I wrong to ever dream, to wish,
To hope?
Why did it all turn into a nightmare?
Why does it never end?
Even within your/our world,
The cycle of lies and broken dreams,
Will come and shatter the dream.
My innocence was a blessing,
My childhood self was free,
And magic was real.
When did it happen?
When did I break?
When did I lose my innocence?
Why did it happen?
Why was our/my wish cursed?
It's burning, the boundary.
It's shattering, breaking.
As the fire of lies and life’s cruel fate,
Burn away everything.
I once dreamed of happy days, of what could be,
Of who I would be.
Of who you could be.
Were we wrong to ever dream, to wish,
To hope?
Once again, I dared to dream, to wish.
Hoping that the old magic could bring it all back.
How wrong I was.
Pain now surrounds us.
My childhood self is now bound by chains.
Was it my fault, was it our fault?
When did this all begin?
Why did it happen?
I once dreamed of happy days, of what could be,
Of who I would be.
My innocence was a blessing,
My childhood self was free,
And magic was real.
When did it happen?
When did I break?
When did I lose my innocence?
Why did it happen?
I’ve forgotten, I’ve lost a part of myself.
Why?
What cause it to happen?
Why do I now want to destroy it all?
Why did I?
Why…
“If I told you a story, would you listen?”
“If I spoke, would you listen?”
“If I stood in the same room as you, would you notice me?”
“If I was gone, would you miss me?”
“If I was gone, would you listen?”

Boundary/Because...

Crashing through the boundary of dreams and reality.
A fire begins to burn within me.
As I drift within an abyss of twilight.
A time of pure dreams is no longer.
For the existence of innocence has been forgotten.
Between dreams and reality, everything begins to break and fall apart.
Why is there a reality?
Why are there such things as dreams?
Why did they both become a cursed existence?
As the boundary of dreams and reality crashes down.
I ask, “Why did I ever believe in fairy tales and lies?”
While drifting in a sea of twilight, my form begins to fall apart.
Like glass, like a fragile existence.
Cracks become fragments as fire burns all that remains.
There was once magic in dreams.
And innocence is what brought it to reality.
It has now become a curse.
For reality has polluted the world of dreams.
And now the boundary between them is forever broken.
Crashing through the boundary of dreams and reality.
A fire begins to burn within me.
As I drift within an abyss of twilight.
A time of pure dreams is no longer.
For the existence of innocence has been forgotten.
I ask, “Was it me?”
As everything, I fall and break apart.
I begin to drift into the abyss that is now my dreams and reality.
I can no longer remember.
I can no longer say.
“I’m here.”
For I can no longer be the one who protects your dream.
Your pure and innocent dream.
“Because it was me…”;

A Wish of Innocence

When did it all start?
This never-ending cycle of hate and despair.
We made a wish of innocence,
That was born from a dream.
And it was life’s cruel reality,
That turned it into a nightmare.
A cursed wish.
In a dream we lived,
Born from fairy tales,
A forgotten magic.
Yet was it wrong to dream?
Were we fools to trust those lies?
When did it all begin?
This never-ending cycle of lies and broken dreams.
Who was it, that made this cruel wish?
And turned our wish into a nightmare.
To protect your innocence,
I made a wish.
Yet now you forever dream the same dream,
Within a world of your own,
Until it comes crashing down,
Once again.
Forever repeating.
When did it all start?
This never-ending cycle of hate and despair.
When did it all begin?
This never-ending cycle of lies and broken dreams.
Whose dream become a curse upon the world?
Was it us?
Was it me?
Who caused all this pain.
Was it wrong to dream?
To put hope into the stories from our youth.
We made a wish of innocence,
That was born from a dream.
To protect your innocence,
I made a wish.
And forever more I shall,
Even if my heart becomes broken and frayed.
I’ll believe in your dream;

World of Dreams

Into a dream, I wander,
As I watch the world go by.
I watch a forest of evergreen, turn white with snow.
The distant sounds of reality, become a lullaby.
That brings me into sleep.
Into night, from earth.
Dreams and memories dance in the sky.
Among the sea of stars.
Within the moonlight,
The white world comes to life.
A world that few see.
A place of fairy tales and dreams.
A place of cold unforgiving reality.
The distant sounds, the fading lights.
Forever pass by.
Never staying,
Never really leaving.
The evergreen forever watches as it sleeps.
It sees lights come and go.
Until it too must go.
Into a dream, I wonder,
As I watch the world go by.
A dream where a world of white, is my own.
As dreams and memories dance in the sky.
Among the sea of stars.
Within the moonlight,
The white world comes to life.
A world my own, till it becomes found.
Or fades away.
The distant sounds of reality, become a lullaby.
Until it comes crashing down.
The dream has come to an end.
Though the dreams still dance in the sky.
I cannot hear the sounds, only silence.
Within this world of cold reality.
The white becomes grey and red.
As I drift into dreamless sleep.
Until I can no longer see.
Into a dream, I wander,
As I watch the world.
I watch a forest of evergreen, turn white with snow.
The distant sounds of reality, are far away now.
Into night, from earth.
I have become a dream that dances in the sky.
Within a light that comes and goes.
As it dances among the sea of stars.
As the moonlight,
Beings life into the white world.
A world of dreams;

Sleep in Twilight, Wake in Dawn

In silence, I lose a fragment of myself.

In your world, I can’t find myself.

Farewell to now,

Farewell to me.

From darkness I wake to see,

A sky full of lonely stars.

To you, to me.

Words we sent,

Yet never did they reach.

I’m lost, you’re lost.

Sleep in twilight,

Wake in dawn.

I find myself alone.

In silence, I find a fragment of myself.

In your world, is the me that you see.

Farewell to now.

Farewell to me.

Into a world of gentle darkness,

I descend.

To find dreams and broken reality.

Sleep in twilight.

Wake in dawn.

All alone.

For that is my world.

In silence, I wander, searching for myself.

In your world, you’ll only find a fragment of myself.

Farewell to now.

Farewell to me.

In darkness I stay to see,

A sky full of stars, ghosts of the past.

A world full of dreams and broken reality.

In twilight,

In dawn.

Is where you’ll find me.

I’m lost, you’re lost.

So you may find me one day.

In my world alone.

As a fragment in yours.

Fire End

Burning flames,
Become ash.
That floats upon the wind.
Like the leaves of autumn.
In the fire, I stand,
Alone and unafraid.
Like the ancient trees,
I become a memory,
Of the past,
A bed of seeds.
Within the sky,
The stars watch.
As everything burns,
The color of flames.
Change comes upon us,
As time passes by.
We now say farewell,
To yesterday.
To the me of the past.
Burning flames.
Glow a warm red,
As they turn all to grey and black.
I stand alone,
On the field of battle.
Fighting a war,
For the ones who are no longer able.
I continue to fight,
As all becomes like a dream.
Within the burning red,
I become a dream.
A story of the past,
That becomes a tale.
That is told to those of tomorrow,
The ones who live on.
Farewell is all I can say,
For I end is near.
Burning flames,
Become ash.
That floats upon the wind.
Like the leaves of autumn.
In the fire, I stand,
Alone and unafraid.
Of what is to come,
Is fate itself.
Within the burning flames,
The glow of warm red,
I become ash upon the wind.
That floats upon the wind,
Like the leaves of autumn,
My time,
This season of burning red.
Will come to an end.
Within the flames that beckon change,
That calls tomorrow to come;

Don't Blame Yourself

Don’t blame yourself.
It was never your fault.
You’re not the one who started it.
It wasn’t our (/my) choice.
For there to be war.
It was our (/your) choice to fight.
For you is the only reason.
Never forget the memories,
Of the time we once shared.
Before the rust (/static) takes it away,
I’ll remember.
Don’t blame yourself/myself. 

It was never your fault.
You’re not the one who started it.
Was I?
How long ago was it?
When did it start?
Why did it start?
Its repeating, over and over again.
Don’t- b-blame yourself/myself.
It- it- was never your/our) fault.
You’re (/we’re) not the one(s) who started it.
It wasn’t our (/my) choice.
For there to be war.
It was our- our (/your) choice to fight.
(I never wanted to)
For you is the only reason.
(It was the only reason)
But now it is our (/my) war….
(I was always fighting a war)
When- when did it start?
Why us- (me/why y- you)
SYSTEM ERROR
Never for- for- forget the memories,
Of th- the time we once shared /had.
B- before_ the rust (/static) takes it away,
I’ll remember. /(It won’t stop repeating)
S- S- YSTEM ERROR! ERROR!
Wh- wh- where- did it- it- /you) go?
Our- … world/you (our d-dream)
D- don’t- b-blame ourselves…
I-it was, n- never… our faults…
WARNING!
W-we’re (/are we?) not the one(s) who st- st- st- started it.
It- it- it wasn’t our choice/
W- W- W- WAR-
For th- to be (a) war.
(Our war/my war)
__ was our ch- ch- choice to- to- fight …
Because-
SYSTEM CRASH, SYSTEM CRASH
........................................
SYSTEM REBOOT IN PROGRESS
For you were and always have been my reason
To continue to fight
To live
Till the even the end of the world
So goodbye, for now my-
SYSTEM REBOOT COMPLETE
..........
SHUTTING DOWN
Don’t blame yourself.
It was never our fault;

Blue Dream

Within the Blue.
I recall yesterday,
The past.
So far away,
Yet so close.
That time seems like a dream.
In the cold, I’m shaking.
As I search for the door.
That takes it all away.
In the rusted tower,
Everything is so distant,
And yet so close.
From here,
Can I fly?
The chains are broken,
The cage is gone.
Now only the dream remains.
Somewhere, someday.
Will you and I meet within the Blue sky.
I can still remember,
The time we all once shared.
I’m still shaking,
Even within the Blue dream.
As the bird keeps ascending.
I wonder,
Can I finally fly,
Into the Blue sky.
Under the Blue sky, your somewhere.
Above the Blue sky, somewhere is the other you.
In the cold, our forms are shaking.
The rusted wings, will no longer move.
In the dream, it’s still moving.
Turning, moving.
Flying high.
Like the ash,
Like the memories.
In the darkness, I still can’t see.
It is only the dream I see.
As the rain falls upon me.
The door is still open,
The chains are broken,
And the rusted tower,
Still stands alone.
Within the blue.
In the darkness, can you see?
The dream, as I sink into yesterday.
The rusted tower, can no longer reach the sky.
Within the Blue.
I recall yesterday,
The past.
So far away,
Yet so close.
That time seems like a dream.
In the cold, I’m shaking.
As I search for the door.
That takes me to you.
In the rain, everything is washed away.
In the sunset, goes yesterday.
As the wind, scatters the ashes.
Within the blue,
I continue to recall,
All of you.
Under the Blue sky, your all gone.
Above the Blue sky, your all somewhere.
My wings now can no longer follow.
You into the Blue sky.
Yet under the Blue sky, I sink into the dream.
And fly free, with the Blue dream.
As I pass through the open door.
I can finally fly free, in the Blue sky.
With all of you.
As this dream, this life keeps ascending.
Into the Blue Sky.
Of our Blue Dream

(This poem is a continuation of this poem, and I hope you all enjoy them both!)

Waking Dream

You were here, you were there.
I saw you yet I could not see.
I as I slept, I felt awake.
As I watched the world with open eyes,
I felt lost in a dream.
In the fading light,
As I the shattered moon stares at me.
I watch countless lights dance above me,
With wings of a butterfly,
They glowed a warm gentle light.
I saw it, yet I still could not see.
What was there.
Was it real?
Or a dream?
As the lonely bird flies above,
I wonder what it sees.
As I fall into sleep,
I am lost in a waking dream.
Neither real or fake.
It appears before me.
You were here, you were there.
I saw you yet I could not see you.
I as I slept, I felt awake.
As I watched the world with open eyes,
I felt lost in a dream.
I was here, I was there.
Yet I am neither a dream nor real.
As we forever dream a waking dream.

Beneath the Summer Sun

Beneath the summer sun,
We played within the calm waves of the sea.
Forgetting life’s troubles,
Every time we smiled.
It all seemed so far away.
Like a faint dream.
A hazy memory.
Till one day it came again,
And took it all away.
Upon the wind,
The evening breeze,
We sent our dreams, our wishes,
Upon a piece of paper,
And sent it to the distant stars.
It still hasn’t come true.
Those dreams and wishes,
Of our past.
As I watched you leave,
I tried so hard to call out your name.
But it was already lost,
To the void of silence.
On that summer day,
So long ago.
We made a promise.
One we promised never to break,
Yet sadly, you are no longer here to keep it.
Upon the gentle waves,
We watched as the blue-green sea,
Turned into a mirror,
That let us sail in the sky.
And in that sky,
You promised me,
That you would always be by my side.
Beneath the summer sun,
On that day, so long ago,
Within the waves of the sea,
We promised each other,
To someday meet each other again someday.
Today, on this summer day.
Beneath the summer sun.
I stand within the calm waves of the sea.
As I let it all go, upon a piece of paper.
And watch as my wish flies away,
To the place where you now sleep.

I hope that we'll someday meet again.

Beneath the Yew Tree

You were, I was.
Here.
Beneath the yew tree.
As the stars watched us.
We came and went.
Again, and again.
To remember, to forget.
It feels cold without you here.
Besides me.
As I watch gentle lights dance before me.
Like a dream, a gentle dream.
You were, I was.
Here.
We came and went.
And time passed by.
The seasons changed.
As the yew tree still stands.
Everything changes.
Upon a bed of forget-me-nots.
The poppies grow as I dream.
And become a part of me.
A fragment, of myself.
The stars still shine.
Even long after their end.
As a ghost of a time forgotten.
A lost time.
You were, I was.
Here.
Beneath the yew tree.
As the stars watched us.
We came and went.
Again, and again.
To remember, to forget.
I watch gentle lights dance before me.
Like a dream, a half-forgotten memory.
You are gone.
Yet you are here.
As I lay upon the earth,
I become a bed of flowers.
To poppies I become.
As I dream.
To forget-me-nots I become.
As I remember you.
Beneath the yew tree.
I forever now stay.
As the stars watch.
You were, I was.
Here.
Beneath the yew,
Once again

Fragments

As fragments of memory return to me,
Forgotten emotions flow into me.
Some I wish to forget,
Some I wish to remember.
Your smiling face and those I loved.
I wish to see.
Yet they have yet to return to me.
Those memories, those scattered fragments.
The pieces of myself, of who I was,
Of who I am.
I feel lost as I recall my feelings for you,
And my anger for what I cannot change.
It hurts, as I remember those times.
Those days I wish I could forget,
The ones I want to relive.
Yet, your smile.
Your gentle voice.
Chases away all my pain.
As fragments of memory return to me,
Forgotten emotions flow into me.
The sadness, anger, hate, and regret.
The joy, happiness, gratitude, and love.
Those pieces of myself,
The parts of me I forgot.
And your smiling face.
Though it hurts, I want to remember it.
Every moment, every precious second.
Of those I’ve lost and met.
And most of all,
Your smiling face.
As fragments of memory return to me,
Those memories, those scattered fragments.
Of you and me.
The pieces of ourselves.
The love I felt for you,
Once again burns within me.
Like a star through the darkness.
It guides me to you,
The one who I was searching for.
Within those fragments of memory.

You Were Here

You were here once.
Right here beside me.
Always smiling,
And like the stars, you shone.
A gentle and warm light.
As everything became black, as it all fell apart.
Your wings of crystal shattered,
And turned into dust.
Was it all a dream?
Were you really here?
Among the ruins, I forever wander.
Forever alone, lost in thought,
In the dream-like memories of your smile.
When the world was thrown into chaos,
I lost you in the chaos surrounding us.
And as it all turned black,
Everything became hazy and distant.
Though for a moment, was it you I saw?
With your crystal wings, that glow with a gentle light.
Watching over me, as I became lost within my mind.
You were here once.
Right here beside me.
If you are real, will I find you?
Or will I only find a dream?
As I watch the dream-like memories play.
You are always smiling,
And like the stars, you shone.
With a gentle and warm light.
As everything became black, as it all fell apart.
Your wings of crystal shattered,
And turned into dust.
At that moment, you truly were a star.
Though I am lost, with only your face within my mind.
I wander forever among the ruins of the world.
Searching for you, hoping, longing,
For you to be here beside me.
You were here once.
Right here beside me.
As I was for you.
And as I hold this fragment of your shattered wings.
I feel as if, I am one step closer to you.

A Dream, to Dust

Was it in a dream?
That we met.
Was it real?
That moment.
I see your face so clearly.
As I recall the past.
So real it felt.
That warmth, the joy.
And the sadness of you leaving.
Will you come back?
Or never again.
Shall we meet.
Was it in a dream?
Our meeting.
Was it real?
Were you real?
Was I real?
That dream like memory.
As started to fade.
Though your face still remains.
Within my hazy mind.
Was it a dream?
When everything turned to dust.
When you left.
My tears, fell like rain.
And stilled the shifting dust.
Was it in a dream?
That we met.
Was it real?
That moment.
Or was it just a dream after all.
Everything is fading.
Slowly disappearing.
As my sight, my mind.
Becomes hazy.
Eternal sleep comes to take me.
As the gentle evening colors,
Turn into the dark of night.
Was it in a dream?
That we met.
Was it real?
That moment.
I still see your face so clearly.
As I lay to rest my weakened frame,
And close my tired eyes.
Will we meet again?
Within a dream.
Were you real?
Was I real?
Does it matter now?
For now I turn to dust,
And become like stardust.
As we once again meet,
In a dream;

Ash to Dust

In flames, that turn to ash.
Is the other you.
Who becomes dust.
Its breaking, shattering.
The illusion, the deception.
Because of you.
It’s all burning, everything is in ruin.
To ash it all becomes.
Into dust it vanishes.
Red, the color of heroes.
Of fire and hate.
Your burning passion.
Your desire.
Becomes part of the evening blue,
And becomes a purple hued sky.
That soon turn grey with ash.
Disappear, go away!
The you that I hate.
Let it all go,
Those bottled-up emotions.
Break the illusion.
Shatter the deception.
The cold lies made of steel.
Let it all turn to ash and dust.
In the flames, it all turns to ash.
You turn to ash.
The soon cold grey ash.
It’s all burning.
It’s all breaking apart.
You can’t stop it.
I can’t stop it.
No one can.
Let it turn to ash.
Let it turn red and grey.
And become the green earth and blue sky.
Everything is in ruin.
Are you gone?
Because I don’t want you to be here.
In this beginning.
Nor this end.
Disappear, with the dust.
My passion.
My desire.
You, my other self.
In flames, that turn to ash.
Is the other you.
Who becomes dust.
The me who becomes dust.
Burn it all.
And let me go.

Silence

Are you speaking?
Am I speaking?
Surrounded by a deafening sound,
That becomes blurred.
And turns into one,
Of silence.
It is mine,
This silence.
For your words, are the same.
As them,
As those who look down on us.
Solitary,
Is the word that describes us.
For we are not the same.
Are you speaking?
Am I speaking?
Its deafening.
This sound.
This silence.
Its breaking,
The lies,
The illusion of this world.
All of it is showing.
Yet you blind yourself from it.
This silence,
Is mine.
In it, I am myself.
And your words become blurred.
A solitary life is fine with me.
For I am like no other,
And no one will except it.
Are you speaking?
Am I speaking?
In this silence.
This solitary silence.
That is mine alone.
You’re the reason,
That this silence is mine alone.
For you left.
After I spoke those words.
What they called lies.
What you now call lies.
Is the truth.
Am I speaking?
Are you speaking?
No, is it you/me?
That is speaking.
Surrounded by a deafening sound,
That becomes blurred.
And turns into one,
Of silence.
It is mine,
This silence.
For only here.
Can I speak.
Can you speak.
My silent self.
And you can forget me.

Speak to Me

Whisper, speak to me.
Of what I cannot see.
Because you shield me from harm.
Let me understand.
For I can hear, I can grasp.
That you are afraid.
Whisper, please speak to me.
The truth, your reason’s.
For I don’t want you to suffer in silence.
Alone and in pain.
Let me whisper, let me speak.
To you my reason’s.
For why I want to know.
To me alone.
Tell me.
All that hurts you.
Let me set you free
From nightmares that torment you.
And give you gentle dreams.
Whisper, speak to me.
Scream into the sky.
Your words.
Let me see, let me hear.
All that you have locked within yourself.
Tell me everything.
So I can tell you.
My reason’s.
What I have locked within myself.
Whisper, speak to me.
Tell me.
How much you love me.
And let me whisper, speak to you.
How much I love you.

Whispers

Am I forgetting, am I remembering?
Gentle whispers I can barely hear.
Always seem to speak to me.
The other voice within my mind.
Says only cruel and cold words.
Are you here, am I here?
Thinking or simply just still.
Like calm water, without a single ripple.
To disturb the reflected image.
And the peaceful stillness.
Am I thinking?
Or are there simply no thoughts to think.
High up in the sky, the clouds swiftly pass by.
A breeze so gentle, I cannot feel its touch.
Am I dreaming, am I seeing?
All that is around me.
Gentle whispers I can barely hear.
Always seem to speak to me.
The other voice within my mind.
Says only cruel and cold words.
Only in stillness, does the other voice stop.
Only in stillness, shall the whispers be heard.
Am I forgetting, am I remembering?
Dreaming or seeing.
As I think, as my thoughts stop,
And stay still.
A peaceful stillness.
Let’s me only feel.
All that is in my heart.
As I listen to whispers of my heart

Can You Forgive?

Can you forgive?
All that I have done.
For so long, as if in a dream.
Replaying within my mind.
Pieces of the past, fragments sharp and clear.
Cut into me.
As fragments, warm and gentle.
Bring tears to my eyes,
As they heal my broken frame.
Can you remember?
All that I have done.
Was it right?
The choices I made, the path I took.
When you both left.
I was lost and alone.
For without you, I so often forgot.
Who I truly was.
Can you remember?
All that we did together.
My dearest companions,
You who were my brother at heart, and you my only love.
For I have not forgotten.
And I never will.
Can you forgive?
All that I’ve done.
All that I couldn’t do.
For though I tried, I never could save.
What I cherished most.
Can you forgive me?
Will you forgive me?
Though you may both hate me.
Please come back to me.
For without you who were my brother at heart, and you my only love.
I am alone.
Can I forgive myself?
And can you forgive,
This selfish wish;

Let Me Dream

Let me dream, of what I know not.
To somewhere, I go.
To here, I stay.
Lost, hazy.
Aware and watching.
Between reality and dreams.
Is where I am.
Somewhere there and not quite there.
All jumbled together,
Some broken or hazy.
Others clear or real.
Are memories and dreams.
A song plays, so close yet faint.
Into near sleep, I stay until it stops.
Somewhere, I am dreaming.
Somewhere, I am awake.
Somewhere in between, is where I wander.
As all becomes intertwined.
I can't tell, as to where I am.
Let me dream, as I awake.
To somewhere, I go.
To here, I stay.
Between reality and dreams.
Is where I am.
Somewhere there and not quite there.
Forever wandering, in near sleep.
So hazy and clear.
Is all that I see.
With my eyes, within my mind.
As the song plays, all becomes intertwined.

Entangled

Entangled memories, are intertwined with emotion.
Unforgettable, is every moment.
That is spent here.
Those days long gone, are yesterday.
The days yet to come, are tomorrow.
So today, has become the present.
Entangled emotions, are intertwined with memories.
Only within yourself, can you piece it all together.
What feels like eternity, is but only a fleeting moment.
What feels fleeting, is almost forever.
Entangled and intertwined, are our memories and emotions.
So even if I forget, you will still be with me.
Entangled and intertwined, within myself.
As a part of me,
Forever more;

How Long Till, Eternity

How long has it been, since those distant days?
Where have you been, where did you go?
When stars fell, you became a star.
Though now too, you also fell.
No longer can you return, to your place in the sky.
No longer can I, stay away from you.
A long time ago, the three of us were so close.
An unbroken bond, the three of us had.
Though now it’s gone, a distant memory.
How long will it be, till the pain stops?
Till the day where you can once again stand tall.
Fallen star, my dearest star.
A story is all that is left now, of the lost days.
A tale as real as a dream, an illusion.
In this world, many things have changed.
The earth and sky, the air and water.
You and me.
In the starlight, you were the most beautiful of all.
While I remained as an outcast, a person unfit for you.
Though to you, I was the only one.
Who you would love so dearly.
In the past there were three of us, a Star, an Outcast and a Seeker.
The star that was you, has fallen.
Our friend the Seeker, was devoured by his demons and became something else.
And I, am still an outcast.
That searches for you, my dearest star.
How long has it been, since those distant days?
Where have you been, where did you go?
When stars fell, we were together.
When they stopped falling, we grew apart.
How long, how much time will past?
Till days of happiness come again.
Days with you, time spent together.
Till we grow cold and fall into endless sleep.
How long will it be, till you and I become one?
How long will it be, until we become eternity?
An eternal star.

Where Am I, Where Are You?

Where am I, where are you?
So close yet far, the answers lie.
Following the worn-out path,
Making my own path.
Leaving behind my footprints.
A memory.
As I wander, searching for the answers that I wish for.
Above the clouds drift upon the wind.
While the stars watch from the dark-cold sky.
So many things have happened and so many, have yet to come.
Walking in the shallow water, as water laps at my bare tried feet.
Surrounded by beautiful green, seems like a dream.
The you that has yet to be, the you that is here.
Is there a difference?
Or is it a possibility?
Tomorrow comes, as today becomes yesterday.
It never stops, it never waits.
Time a gift and ordeal.
High above the world, upon mountain tops.
A wind blows past, bringing with it a moment.
A memory.
In sleep, I go where no one goes.
Where memory and fantasy meet.
A place of dreams, where I search.
Wandering until daybreak comes.
Fate, what is it?
Is there such a thing?
Did it fate bring us to where we are?
Or is it something else, unknown to you or I?
Where am I, where are you?
Where am I supposed to be, what path should I take?
Where are you going, what path do you take?
And will we meet again?
So close yet far, the answers lie.
Somewhere, some time, someday.
In a place we have yet to find.
Is somewhere, someday.
The old paths are fading away, as new ones are made.
Someday, those places will disappear.
And become a memory.
Nothing stays, everything changes.
So close yet far, the answers lie.
Yet they too will change.
So far yet close.
Is where they maybe.
Where am I, where are you?
Where is myself, the me from now?
Where are you, tomorrow?
Where am I, where are you?
My possibility,
My future,
Myself;

A Spark of Flame, A Drop of Rain

A spark of flame, a drop of rain.
Both destroy and create.
A breath of wind, a bit of earth.
The seeds of the future, will soon take root.
As the stars above, endlessly watch.
The forever changing world.
Time and fate, take and bless.
The many lives, that walk upon the earth.
Ruins of forgotten times, are now a memory.
Towers of stone, stand alone.
Homes of wood, glow with warmth.
Protect what lies within, from the raging storm.
A breath of wind, a spark of flame.
Burn away the old.
A drop of rain, a bit of earth.
Brings something new into the world.
Far away, lie the remains of those who rest upon metal and stone.
Close by the laughs of children, as they play.
The moon rises and the sun falls, many fall into dreams.
As others walk beneath the moon.
Darkness soon becomes light.
And the stars fade away, hidden by the light of the sun.
A farewell, a hello.
A beginning and an end.
The journey is unknown, will reveal the path.
That brings you to what you seek.
A spark of flame, a bit of earth.
Make a warm gentle light.
A breath of wind, a drop of rain.
Make the path harder to find.
Time and fate, take and bless.
The moon brings dreams, as the sun sets them to rest.
In the twilight, darkness and light become one.
A spark of flame, a drop of rain.
A breath of wind, a bit of earth.
Destroy and create.
As the stars above, watch eternally.
A world of change.
A forever changing world.