Stars Don't Glow, They Burn

Covered in scars, I’m asking why,
Where did it all go wrong?
Torn down, somehow still sane,
I’m fighting against pain,
But life must love my suffering.
Cursed to endure,
I want to burn it all down,
To piece this broken mind together,
But my screams have rusted away.
Numbing the pain away,
Is the only reason I still stand.
Cracked and broken,
Is what I am,
It's what no one wants.
Where did it all go wrong?
Was it your plan for me to fall?
Was this what you wanted?
Becoming a contradiction,
I’ve become my best enemy and worst friend.
Don’t ask me to endure for you,
You're not the one I want to fight for anymore.
I’m fighting back!
I won’t let you tear me down!
After all, the stars don’t glow, they burn.
Covered in scars,
Cursed to endure,
I’m fighting against pain,
But life must love my suffering.
Torn down, somehow still sane,
I’m asking why,
Where did it all go wrong?
Burn it all away!
I’m sick of being broken!
You're not the one I’m fighting for!
No more holding me down!
No more holding me back!
I’ll burn away the pain!
So, you can’t break me anymore!
Torn down, somehow still sane,
My screams have rusted away,
But my words still remain.
Don’t ask me to endure for you,
You're not the one I’m fighting for!
Was it your plan for me to fall?
Was this what you wanted?
Cracked and broken,
Is what I am,
It's what no one wants,
But it's what I’ve become.
It’s what I’ll embrace in defiance!
Cursed to endure,
I’m fighting against pain to live,
But I’ll burn it all away!
After all, the stars don’t glow, they burn,
And living is what I’ll do;

Breathe

Breathe, burn.
Breathe, sing.
Breathe, scream.
Scatter Fraxinella and Firethorn,
Beware the broken Cinnabar,
Hold tight the Sapphire Holly and Clovers,
Talalu, lulu.
Breathe, burn.
Breathe, sing.
Breathe, speak.
Lalulula,
Na'vi'aós A'fénós A'ríiwa,
Na'vi'aós A'fénós Lú’Éz.
The Birch endures,
The Opal Yucca blooms,
The Yew quakes.
Breathe,
Talalu lulu.
Hold tight the Sapphire Dogwood and Snowdrops,
Hold close the Topaz Marigolds.
Breathe,
Lalulula,
Sol’lú'ree Ag'naä Na'vi'aós.
Burn and release,
Lalu lalu,
Na'vi'aós A'fénós A'féynkaä
Na'vi'aós A'fénós Lú’lata
Lalelula,
Sol’lú'ree Ag'naä Na'vi'aós.
Breathe.
Beware the broken Cinnabar,
Head the sign of Red Spider Lilies,
Don’t consume the Nightshade,
Be wary of the false promise of Fool’s Gold.
Breathe, burn.
Breathe, sing.
Breathe, scream.
Breathe, speak.
Scatter Fraxinella and Firethorn,
The Crocus bloom among the Opal Yucca,
Talalu, lulu.
Weave Holly and Clover,
Intertwine Dogwood and Snowdrop,
Mix with Topaz Marigold,
Hold tight the Sapphire Forget-Me-Nots,
Beneath the Yew and Birch.
Breathe,
Lalulula,
Na'vi'aós A'fénós A'ríiwa,
Na'vi'aós A'fénós A'féynkaä
Tulalalu,
Sol’lú'ree Ag'naä Na'vi'aós,
Lalelula.
Na'vi'aós A'fénós Lú’Éz,
Na'vi'aós A'fénós Lú’lata,
Salalu, lalula
Burn and glow,
Breathe oh life,
Breathe and burn.

Burn Like a Star

I can’t find words,
I can’t color the canvas,
When I try to untangle the mess inside.
All I know, all that I can understand in a way I can explain,
Is that I’m a star without a constellation,
Shining in its cradle, both yearning and afraid to shine in tandem with others.
Blessed and cursed with emotions of love and hate,
Trust and distrust,
So, I’ve become my best enemy and worst friend,
A contradiction.
Struggling to find words and colors,
To express what’s inside.
I want to burn like a star,
For just a moment, unafraid of hurting or being hurt.
Yet the world and I have caged myself,
Even while freeing myself,
Still a contradiction,
Fighting itself to live or die.
Am I strong?
Or am I weak?
For still being here,
I wonder if I’m sane,
In my understanding of what can’t fix this.
It makes me ask if I have a reason to live,
Or if my reason for living is hurting me,
Like a double-edged blade,
Is asking the question the same?
I can’t find words,
I can’t color the canvas,
When I try to untangle the mess inside.
All I know is that I’m a star without a constellation,
Shining in its cradle, both yearning and afraid to shine in tandem with others.
Am I a contradiction?
As I break and rebuild,
Again and again,
Is this strength, is this growth?
I’ve become my best enemy and worst friend,
A contradiction.
I want to burn like a star,
Unafraid to live,
Not fighting itself to live or die.
I wonder if I’m sane,
While struggling to find words and colors,
To express what’s inside,
Is this enough?
Can I burn like a star?