Fighting to Survive

Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored.
I’m here, burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
Fragmented, I’ve become numb to the pain,
To the emotions I should feel.
Yet the turmoil they create,
Weighs down my broken form.
Flames ignite,
Waves consume,
All while I watch from afar.
I’m fighting to survive,
The clawing shadow dragging me down,
Drowning me in suffocating thoughts.
I chain it up, keep it caged,
But nothing can hold it back forever,
Nothing can save me from it.
Apathy is my release,
Dreams are my escape.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored.
I feel as if I’m nothing,
An emotion nothing can dispel,
Not even those I love.
It’s a curse,
My emotions,
My empathy,
My very existence.
And if no one cares if I disappear,
I’ll curse them to bear my pain.
I’m tired,
Tired of everything.
I want to dream,
To escape,
Yet my reality keeps me here.
I’m here, burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
Fragmented, I’ve become numb to the pain,
To the emotions I should feel.
Yet the turmoil they create,
Continues to break my will.
I’m cursed to fight for my existence,
To battle the shadow dragging me down,
Drowning me in suffocating thoughts.
I chain it up, keep it caged,
But nothing can hold it back forever,
Nothing can save me from it.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored,
I’m fighting to live,
I scream,
Do I even exist?
I want to curse the world,
For bringing suffering where there should be none,
Let them bear my pain.
I want the flames to burn it all to ash,
For the waves to come crashing down,
And swallowed by crushing gravity in the void.
Fragmented, I don’t want to care,
I don’t want to feel anymore,
My will to live is waning.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
I’m here,
I’m burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
Fragmented, I’ve become numb to the pain,
To the emotions I should feel.
Yet the turmoil they create,
Weighs down my broken form.
I’m fighting to survive,
The monster dragging me down,
Drowning me in suffocating thoughts.
I chain it up, keep it caged,
But nothing can hold it back forever,
No one can save me from it,
Not even myself.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored.
Flames ignite,
Waves consume,
All while I watch from afar,
In silent apathy,
I don’t want to feel any longer.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored.
I’m here, burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
Fragmented, I’ve become numb to the pain,
To the emotions I should feel.
Yet the turmoil they create,
Weighs down my broken form,
Breaking my will to live.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored,
I’m fighting to live,
I scream,
Do I even exist?
I want to curse the world,
Let them bear my pain.
I want the flames to burn it all to ash,
For the waves to come crashing down,
And swallowed by crushing gravity in the void.
I’m burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
I’ve become numb to the pain.
I’m fighting to live,
Battling the monster dragging me down,
Drowning me in suffocating thoughts.
I chain it up, keep it caged,
But nothing can hold it back forever,
Not the ones I love,
Not even myself.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
I am here,
Forgotten and ignored,
I’m fighting to live;