Chasing Memories

Memories fill my mind,
Emotions fill my heart,
As I wish for just a moment,
To be a child once more.
To hold your hands with those of a child,
To see the world through innocent eyes,
And be held in your arms once more.
Why can’t I, for a moment,
Halt the hands of time?
Why aren’t you here with me?
I’m still here,
I’m still here to live.
A broken heart,
A broken star of glass.
Even if everyone else goes,
I hope to endure the fire,
Even if everything is left broken and scarred,
Here I hope to stay,
Strong and brave for you,
Till I reach the end,
That final chapter.
Memories fill my mind,
Emotions fill my heart,
As I wish for just a moment,
To be a child once more.
To laugh with you as you lift me up,
And show me the joys of life.
I once thought,
I once wished,
That we would never have to say goodbye.
I once dreamed of a day,
When you would be the one to let me go,
When you two would dance together with me,
And see me grow.
Now I wander other worlds,
As I dream of what could have been,
As I dream to forget the pain.
Yet I know,
There is still so much to experience,
So much to see and hear,
I’m still here,
Here to live.
I can’t halt the hands of time,
So all I can do is watch seeds grow,
See metal rust and flowers bloom,
As stars shine and die,
And watch the world before me change,
Wishing that you were here.
Memories fill my mind,
Emotions fill my heart,
As I wish for just a moment,
To be a child once more.
To forget all the worries,
And simply let the days go by,
Smiling all the while.
Now I Long for a warmth I may never have,
A fragile wish.
Why can’t I, for a moment,
Halt the hands of time?
Why aren’t you here with me?
I’m still here,
I’m still here to live.
I close my tired eyes,
When tears threaten to drown the light,
When it all becomes too much to bear,
Because I am delicate patched glass.
Yet for you, I’ll endure it all,
The pain and grief,
I’ll be indomitable,
In spirit and heart.
I’m still to live.
And here I hope I stay,
Even if everyone else runs away.
Even as memories fill my mind,
Emotions fill my heart,
As I wish for just a moment,
To be a child once more.
To hold your hands with those of a child,
To see the world through innocent eyes,
And be held in your arms once more.
Why can’t I, for a moment,
Halt the hands of time?
Why aren’t you here with me?
To laugh with you as you lift me up,
And show me the joys of life.
To forget all the worries,
And simply let the days go by,
Smiling all the while,
With the heart of a child.
I’m still here,
A broken star of glass,
Chasing those memories,
Fighting to keep them close,
To never forget,
Till the final chapter,
When I can finally tell you,
I lived, and I never forgot,
Just how much you love me

Caught in Twilight

Caught in twilight,
I’m lost within my cage,
Yet free to grow,
To bloom.
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m here,
A memory of the past,
Reborn in the future,
Enduring in the present.
Even as stars implode and fade,
I burn brightly with solar light,
Even as my shadow grows cold.
Wounds brand my skin,
Scars sear my broken heart,
Yet I endure,
I remain.
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m here,
Standing in the twilight.
Lost within my cage,
Yet free to bloom,
To cry out.
For what reason do I exist?
I’m a star dancing on the horizon’s edge,
Fighting to exist,
To protect something,
But is that who I am?
Trapped in twilight,
I’m lost within my cage,
Yet free to bloom,
To exist.
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m here,
A memory of the past,
Reborn in the future,
Enduring in the present.
Death is far behind,
Till I kill my light,
And slay my darkness,
I’ll merely endure.
Even as stars implode and fade,
I burn brightly with solar light,
Even as my shadow grows cold.
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m here,
Existing in the twilight.
I’m lost within my cage,
Yet free to bloom,
To cry out.
Who am I?
Caught in the twilight,
I’m lost within my cage.
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m here,
I’m right here.
I’m a star dancing on the horizon’s edge,
I burn brightly with solar light,
Even as my shadow grows cold,
I fight to exist,
To protect something,
But is that who I am?
Wounds brand my skin,
Scars sear my broken heart,
Yet I endure,
I remain.
Lost,
Trapped,
I’m alone and afraid.
Stars burn,
Dwarfs glow,
Imploding and fading,
It's never-ending.
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m here,
I’m right here,
A memory,
Existing,
Alone,
Blooming,
Fighting,
Enduring,
I’m right here,
I’m here,
Forever caught in twilight;

Fighting to Survive

Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored.
I’m here, burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
Fragmented, I’ve become numb to the pain,
To the emotions I should feel.
Yet the turmoil they create,
Weighs down my broken form.
Flames ignite,
Waves consume,
All while I watch from afar.
I’m fighting to survive,
The clawing shadow dragging me down,
Drowning me in suffocating thoughts.
I chain it up, keep it caged,
But nothing can hold it back forever,
Nothing can save me from it.
Apathy is my release,
Dreams are my escape.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored.
I feel as if I’m nothing,
An emotion nothing can dispel,
Not even those I love.
It’s a curse,
My emotions,
My empathy,
My very existence.
And if no one cares if I disappear,
I’ll curse them to bear my pain.
I’m tired,
Tired of everything.
I want to dream,
To escape,
Yet my reality keeps me here.
I’m here, burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
Fragmented, I’ve become numb to the pain,
To the emotions I should feel.
Yet the turmoil they create,
Continues to break my will.
I’m cursed to fight for my existence,
To battle the shadow dragging me down,
Drowning me in suffocating thoughts.
I chain it up, keep it caged,
But nothing can hold it back forever,
Nothing can save me from it.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored,
I’m fighting to live,
I scream,
Do I even exist?
I want to curse the world,
For bringing suffering where there should be none,
Let them bear my pain.
I want the flames to burn it all to ash,
For the waves to come crashing down,
And swallowed by crushing gravity in the void.
Fragmented, I don’t want to care,
I don’t want to feel anymore,
My will to live is waning.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
I’m here,
I’m burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
Fragmented, I’ve become numb to the pain,
To the emotions I should feel.
Yet the turmoil they create,
Weighs down my broken form.
I’m fighting to survive,
The monster dragging me down,
Drowning me in suffocating thoughts.
I chain it up, keep it caged,
But nothing can hold it back forever,
No one can save me from it,
Not even myself.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored.
Flames ignite,
Waves consume,
All while I watch from afar,
In silent apathy,
I don’t want to feel any longer.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored.
I’m here, burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
Fragmented, I’ve become numb to the pain,
To the emotions I should feel.
Yet the turmoil they create,
Weighs down my broken form,
Breaking my will to live.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
Forgotten and ignored,
I’m fighting to live,
I scream,
Do I even exist?
I want to curse the world,
Let them bear my pain.
I want the flames to burn it all to ash,
For the waves to come crashing down,
And swallowed by crushing gravity in the void.
I’m burning from the inside out,
As my heart is freezing and splintering.
I’ve become numb to the pain.
I’m fighting to live,
Battling the monster dragging me down,
Drowning me in suffocating thoughts.
I chain it up, keep it caged,
But nothing can hold it back forever,
Not the ones I love,
Not even myself.
Here I stand,
Here I exist,
I am here,
Forgotten and ignored,
I’m fighting to live;

In Stardust

In the stardust, seeds bloom.
Darkness melts into the light,
To eternal twilight.
From ashes, the stars rise,
Burning bright till their final moments.
Nothing lasts forever,
In this ephemeral world,
Not even you.
In time’s embrace, we grow and thrive,
Till our chapter ends.
Once it is written, it can never be undone,
Only remembered.
The ripples you created still reverberate across the sea,
And stain the pages with memories.
I can’t undo your fate,
Just as I can’t see mine.
I can only hope that you are sleeping peacefully,
Within your endless dreams.
In the stardust, seeds bloom.
Darkness melts into the light,
To eternal twilight.
From ashes, the stars rise,
Burning bright till their final moments.
Flowers grow and wilt,
Their petals scatter upon the wind.
I can only watch time move on,
Even as the tree’s roots embrace the earth.
Rain falls and returns to the ocean,
Mountains rise and fall,
I can only see the footprints they left behind.
Nothing lasts forever,
In this ephemeral world,
Not even you.
I can’t undo your fate,
Just as I can’t see mine.
I can only hope that you are sleeping peacefully,
Within your endless dreams,
And wish that cruel reality didn’t take you away so soon.
In the stardust, seeds bloom.
Darkness melts into the light,
To eternal twilight.
From ashes, the stars rise,
Burning bright till their final moments.
Nothing lasts forever,
In this ephemeral world,
Not even me.
In time’s embrace, we grow and thrive,
Till our chapter ends.
Once it is written, it can never be undone,
Only remembered.
The ripples you created still reverberate across the sea,
And stain the pages with memories.
I can only hope and pray,
That your wounded heart is cradled in everlasting warmth,
Even as tears fall from mine.
In the stardust, seeds bloom.
Darkness melts into the light,
To eternal twilight.
From ashes, the stars rise,
Burning bright till their final moments
Just as you did,
Just as I will someday.
I can’t undo your fate,
Just as I can’t see mine.
But it will be okay,
The pain remains but your light,
Will forever shine within the stardust;

Cradled in a Bed of Flowers

Cradled in a bed of flowers,
You forever dream,
Lost in a place that may never be.
Why can’t I for a moment halt the hands of time?
And share that dream with you.
Why aren’t you here with me?
Among the stars,
I’ve drifted upon solar winds,
From planet to planet,
Past suns and their remnants,
To galaxies far beyond the horizon,
All to find what we were searching for.
Where are you?
In the ruins of rusted metal,
Of towers that scraped the sky,
The machines of war remain broken and overgrown,
As a memory of history that should never repeat.
Flowers bloom and seeds spread,
Just as the hand of time moves on.
In the ashes and the dust,
I dream of sharing that dream with you.
A wish of a hope that I hold close to my heart.
Cradled in a bed of flowers,
You forever dream,
Lost in a place that may never be.
Why can’t I for a moment halt the hands of time?
And share that dream with you.
Why aren’t you here with me?
I’m here, searching, waiting..
Among the stars,
I’ve drifted upon solar winds,
And glided by black holes,
From planet to planet,
Past suns and their remnants,
To galaxies far beyond the horizon,
That not even time can reach,
All to find what we were searching for.
In the memories,
The past replays its recorded history.
A story with burned pages and missing pieces,
A never-ending tale.
But where is yours?
In the ruins of rusted metal,
Of towers that scraped the sky,
The machines of war remain broken and overgrown,
Flowers bloom and seeds spread,
Just as the hand of time moves on.
In the ashes and the dust,
I continue to dream of sharing that future with you.
A wish of a hope that I hold close to my heart.
Where are you?
In the flames, everything burned,
In the void of space, everything froze,
To the price of war, everything broke.
Promises made bloom as flowers,
From the ashes and dust,
From seeds of innocent dreams from another time,
A past long gone.
Among the stars,
I’ve drifted upon solar winds,
And glided by black holes,
From planet to planet,
Past suns and their remnants,
To galaxies far beyond the horizon,
That not even time can reach.
You forever dream,
Lost in a place that may never be.
Why can’t I for a moment halt the hands of time?
And share that dream with you.
I want to dream of sharing that future with you,
And hold that hopeful wish to my heart,
While cradled in a bed of flowers;

Star of Glass

Among a forest of books,
I wander other worlds,
As I dream of things, both real and imaginary,
Within this overgrown, ruined place,
Beneath the eternal sky.
I am here, a broken heart,
A broken star of glass.
Silently weaving, quietly existing,
Till my words touch the pages,
And colors spill out from my stained fingers.
Forget-me-nots sprout from the cracks,
And bloom beneath a twilight sky,
A reminder of bittersweet thoughts,
Of fragile memories I hold within glass stars.
To forget the pain, the sorrow that lingers on,
I let myself become entangled by threads,
The waking dreams I create,
By the worlds I let myself fall into.
A flame flickers beneath my tear-stained face,
A small quiet voice quivers and struggles to speak.
Is that voice the past or present me?
Among a forest of books,
I wander other worlds,
As I dream of things, both real and imaginary,
Within this overgrown, ruined place,
Beneath an eternal twilight sky.
I remain alone,
Longing for a warmth I may never have,
A fragile wish.
I close my tired eyes,
I cut off from reality,
When tears threaten to drown the light,
When it all becomes too much to bear,
Because I am delicate patched glass.
Can you hear the words,
My rusted voice can’t speak aloud.
Among a forest of books,
I wander other worlds,
As I dream of things, both real and imaginary,
Within this overgrown, scarred, ruined place,
Beneath the eternal twilight sky.
I am here, a broken heart,
A broken star of glass.
Forever silently weaving, quietly existing,
Till my whispered words touch the charred pages,
And colors spill out from my stained fingers.
Forget-me-nots sprout from my cracked heart,
And bloom beneath a lonely sky,
A reminder of bittersweet thoughts,
Of fragile memories I hold within glass stars.
A flame flickers beneath my tear-stained face,
A small quiet voice quivers and struggles to sing.
Is that voice the past or present me?
Only ashes remain of the things that burned in the flames,
That brought this place to ruin twice more.
To forget the pain, the sorrow that lingers on,
I let myself become entangled by the thin red threads,
That hold and hang the glass stars above,
By my endless dreams.
I remain alone in this scarred place,
Longing for a fragile warmth I may never have.
Can you hear the words,
My rusted voice can’t speak aloud.
Among a forest of books,
I forever wander other worlds,
As I dream of things, both real and imaginary,
Within this overgrown, ruined place,
Beneath an eternal twilight sky.
Forget-me-nots bloom from my heart,
My rusted quiet voice hums a bittersweet melody,
The words are mere whispers,
Till they touch the charred pages,
And colors spill out from my stained fingers.
I am here, a broken heart,
A broken star of glass.
Silently weaving, quietly existing,
Till I return to stardust;

Alone, I'll live On (Rewrite)

Alone, I live on,
Among the memories,
Within the ruins of yesterday,
I continue on, despite the pain.
We once lived a blissful fragile life,
Despite the danger,
And knowing that in a blink of an eye,
Everything could change.
Since the moment we met,
This once pitiable girl,
A bystander to fate,
Became something more.
Within the colors,
The fragments of memory,
Are the pieces you all left behind,
The ones who gave me my wings.
Adorned in colors,
Painting the once lonely white,
In vibrant burning light.
I’ll defy fate,
And end this wretched story,
The way we’ve always wanted.
Even if we are just particles of stardust,
In time’s great expanse,
Within this vast, lonely universe.
Hold me tight,
Gently swaddle me in warm light,
Within the memories we share.
I’ll hold them close within my heart,
Just as you once did me.
Stars implode as they die,
A brief moment of blinding light,
As they scatter life-giving dust.
Just as oceans become deserts,
And streams become rivers.
Life continues on.
Alone,
Among the memories,
Within the ruins of yesterday,
I continue on, despite the loneliness and pain.
I’ll tear down this broken system,
This flawed, sad future,
For the dream and the peace we once fought for.
I’ll defy fate,
And end this wretched story,
The way we’ve always wanted.
Petals scatter,
As seeds fall and bloom again,
Even as the world is scarred by war.
Since the moment we met,
This once pitiable girl,
A bystander to fate,
Became something more.
Within the colors,
The fragments of memory,
Are the pieces you all left behind,
The ones who gave me my wings.
Adorned in colors,
Painting the once lonely white,
In vibrant burning light.
A star, an angel was born.
Because of all of you,
The ones I hold dear to my heart.
Alone I may lose my way,
But your light still guides me home,
And into the light.
We once lived a blissful fragile life,
Despite the danger,
And knowing that in a blink of an eye,
Everything could change.
Yet, we still loved this broken world.
I still love this broken world.
As the years,
The centuries pass by,
I’ll continue on.
Even if we are just particles of stardust,
In time’s great expanse,
Within this vast, lonely universe.
Hold me tight,
Gently swaddle me in warm light,
Within the memories we share.
I’ll hold them close within my heart,
Just as you once did me,
Even as we said farewell.
Alone, I live on,
Among the memories,
Within the ruins of yesterday,
I continue on, despite all the pain I bear.
Since the moment we met,
This once pitiable girl,
A bystander to fate,
Became something more.
Within the colors,
The fragments of memory,
Are the pieces you all left behind,
The ones who gave me my wings.
A star, an angel was born.
Because of all of you,
The ones I hold dear to my heart.
Adorned in colors,
Painting the once lonely white,
In vibrant burning light.
I’ll defy fate,
And end this wretched story,
The way we’ve always wanted.
Even though you’re all gone,
Despite your deaths.
You are all still here,
My lights,
My guiding stars.
As the years,
The centuries pass by,
I’ll continue on.
Even if we are just particles of stardust,
A faint memory,
In time’s great expanse,
Within this vast, lonely universe.
We once called this earth home,
This beautifully flawed, broken world,
This earth you loved,
Is the place you all left behind.
Though alone, I’ll live on,
Among the memories,
Within the ruins of yesterday,
Despite my broken heart,
I’ll live on for you.
For this world,
I’ll become its guardian angel,
It’s guiding light, a star.
For all of you,
For me,
I’ll continue to live;

Gravity

As the countdown starts, I see your smiling face.

Blasting off into the endless sky, you go.

So hopeful, you’re filled with aspirations and wishes.

Nothing deters you; your fear is just an ember.

Till it all begins to fall apart.

On every starlit night, you brought me to gaze upon the millions, the billions, the uncountable number of lights.

Always softly speaking to me, gently holding me close.

As you bestowed your dreams onto me,

As we spoke aloud, our intertwined desires.

Like a pair of binary stars, nothing can pull us apart.

Even if black holes and supernovas materialize,

And galaxies fly apart.

Gravity ties us together.

Blasting off into the endless sky, you go.

So hopeful, you’re filled with aspirations and wishes.

Nothing deters you; your emotions are just an ember.

Till it all begins to fall apart.

Burning bright, the flame ignites.

The chemicals react and dance.

I know, you knew,

That defying gravity meant possibly losing our dreams.

Your falling, I’m falling.

Caught in orbit, all I see is the endless space above.

Constellations connect the sky, 

As branches of the galaxy wrap around the planet.

Ghosts dot the sky; dark matter dances in light’s shadow.

Atoms form, Hydrogen and Helium react.

Stars implode and burst,

Stardust flies into the void to start again.

As the countdown starts, I see your smiling face.

Blasting off into the endless sky, you go.

So hopeful, you’re filled with aspirations and wishes.

Our love is just an ember,

Till it repeats all over again.

Blue and red, yellow and white,

The in-between orange,

Stars sparkle and shine in all their forms.

Even as the elements burn and consume.

Always softly speaking to me, gently holding me close.

As you bestowed your dreams onto me,

As we spoke aloud, our intertwined desires.

Burning bright, the flame ignites.

The chemicals react and dance.

I know, you knew,

That defying gravity meant possibly starting over again.

Neutron and dwarf stars emerge from the cold void.

Comets and asteroids fly across the sky.

Golden dust, Oxygen and Iron, Sulfur and Calcium,

Freely dance in the solar winds.

Interstellar cradles of dust gently glow,

Enveloping us in life-giving warmth.

As the countdown starts, I see your smiling face.

Blasting off into the endless sky, you go.

So hopeful, you’re filled with aspirations and wishes.

Our love is just an ember,

Till it sparkles and ignites into a blazing light.

Even if black holes and supernovas materialize,

And galaxies fly apart.

Like a pair of binary stars, gravity ties us together,

Dying and reforming, the story begins anew.

Even in death and rebirth,

Our love is forever eternal;

The Silence of Babylon

Beneath the ever-watching stars,
Within the twilight between the sun and moon,
Wandering aimlessly through empty plains.
Till the silhouette of ancient ruins,
Appear before me.
As radiant sunlight illuminates the once-grand gates of Babylon
The memories of a distant past emerge
As an echo of distant voices within the howling wind,
As a hazy mirage that dances within the sands of time.
Till nature’s embrace and time’s law reclaim what is theirs,
As sand drifting on the wind.
Beneath the ever-watching stars,
Within the twilight between the sun and moon,
The silence of Babylon, the myth that we made.
Rings through the ruins and from the gates that gleam gold within the twilight.

Spirits Walk Among Us

Entangled by the nettle,
Silenced by the knife.
The cards fall scattered and reversed,
As it all comes crumbling down.
Beware the hemlock,
Don’t pluck the red poppies of endless sleep.
The fey folk warn of the dark,
The neighbors that seek your death.
The runes speak,
The knots intertwine,
Head their call.
The candle burns an eerie glow,
As the cauldron bubbles and boils the witch’s brew,
The old gods ask for eternal vows.
Take a branch of the yew,
Wrap it with hawthorn,
And carve into it charms of protection,
For the banshee warns of a coming death.
Entangled by the nettle,
Silenced by the knife.
The cards fall scattered and reversed,
As it all comes crumbling down.
The bones disperse and dissolve into ash,
As the gods of life and death continue their eternal dance.
Lost in the dreams,
Caught in the weave of magic,
The magic of the fey lures you to your death.
Don’t consume the tea of nightshade,
Don’t break the circle.
The house Baba Yaga is moving,
As the Dullahan rides off into the night.
The pages fade,
As the promise is broken.
The runes speak,
The knots intertwine,
Don’t ignore the gods,
Head their call.
An endless cycle continues on,
A never-ending spell.
The dragons of fire and water,
Bring forth truth, wealth, and caution.
The druids practice,
The shamans speak,
The witches brew,
The sorceress weave,
The bards enthrall.
Entangled by the nettle,
Silenced by the knife.
The cards fall scattered and reversed,
As it all comes crumbling down.
Beware the hemlock,
Don’t pluck the red poppies of endless sleep.
The fey folk warn of the dark,
The neighbors that seek your death,
For the hunter of fear and hatred comes.
Consume the fireweed,
Take a branch of yew and birch,
Sing a song of parsley, sage, rosemary, and thyme.
Bless the sword of gold and iron,
Bejeweled with lapis lazuli and moonstone,
With diamonds born from fire.
Entangled by the nettle,
Silenced by the knife.
The cards fall scattered and reversed,
As it all comes crumbling down.
The bones disperse and dissolve into ash,
The runes speak,
The knots intertwine,
Don’t ignore the gods,
Head their call,
For the spirits walk among us;