(Rewrite) When You Were Here, I Was Waiting

Note: A rewrite and combination of my old poems Waiting for You and You Were Here.

You were here once.
Right here beside me.
Always smiling,
Until-
I promised to be here, waiting for you.
A light in the darkness,
Even if I couldn’t be by your side.
As everything became black, as it all fell apart. 
Your wings shattered,
And turned into dust.
Was it all a dream?
Were you really here in the end?
Am I simply dreaming again?
I’m tangled in the threads,
Again, here but far away.
For you, I wanted to become a light that guides you home. 
Through the darkness and despair.
Through all the things that would hurt and block your way.
I wanted to be your light,
I still wish I could have been-
Forever alone, lost in thought,
In the dream-like memories of your smile.
When our worlds fell apart,
I lost you in the chaos,
And as it all turned black,
As everything became hazy and distant.
I thought for a moment, that was it you I saw?
You were here once.
Right here beside me.
Always smiling,
Until-
I promised to be here, waiting for you.
To be a light in the darkness,
Even if I couldn’t be by your side.
Even when-
I promised to be here, waiting for you.
A light in the darkness,
Even if I couldn’t be by your side.
In the dream-like memories of your smile.
When our worlds fell apart,
I lost you in the chaos and the pain.
I thought for a moment once, was it you I saw?
I’m tangled in the threads,
Again, here but far away.
For you, I wanted to become a light that guides you home. 
Through the darkness and despair.
I wanted to be your light,
I still wish I could have been-
Please for me,
Stand tall, you can cry, you can smile,
And I know you’ll find happiness once again.
Even if everything falls apart and fades into black,
Into an abyss of despair.
Don’t let me be the reason,
For everything that brings you pain.
As I wander among the ruins of our world.
Searching, hoping, longing,
That it could be you that right here beside me.
You were here once,
Right here beside me.
But I wasn’t for you,
I wasn’t meant to be-
I still pray that you’ll find your way home,
Through the darkness and despair.
Through all the things that would hurt and block your way.
I pray for you;