For You Were

I once thought,
I once wished,
That we would never have to say goodbye.
I once thought,
I once hoped,
That it wouldn’t be so soon.
I once thought,
That it wouldn’t hurt so much.
Yet it does,
All the pain, the sorrow,
Everything,
It all makes me feel like glass,
And I’m afraid I’ll break,
And stay broken.
For you were once someone,
A part of what kept me strong.
My reason for living,
For not wanting to disappear.
I never wanted to say goodbye,
I never wanted you to leave.
But in the end,
It sadly was a wish of a child,
That could never come true.
I once thought,
I once wished,
That we would never have to say goodbye.
I once thought,
I once hoped,
That it wouldn’t be so soon.
I once thought,
That you would still be here with us.
That you would always be there for us,
For me.
For you were once someone,
A part of what kept me strong.
My reason for living,
For not wanting to disappear.
A part of this world I loved,
A blessing I was lucky to have.
One I never wished to lose.
Why does it hurt so much?
Why did it have to be so soon?
I once thought,
I once dreamed,
That we would never have to say goodbye.
I once thought,
That we would always be together.
Even when we were apart,
Even when we fought,
Even when we were together.
I never wanted it to end,
For you were once my father,
A part of what made me who I am,
A part of what kept me strong.
My family,
That was my reason for living,
For not wanting to disappear from this world.
My reason,
My happiness,
A part of my world.
That I’d thought I never lose.
But rather than say goodbye,
I rather see you again,
And tell you,
All those things I wished I could say,
Of all those memories.
I wish I could tell you,
About all the wonderful things to come,
And that I hope I can be your daughter once again,
Now and forever more

Eternity

“Besides me you stand,”
“Always there, never gone.”
“Even when you are.”
“You are always here.”
In my hands I hold a flower,
In my heart I hold a memory,
One that I can never forget.
Among the flowers I recall their meanings,
And what they mean to me.
For they express what my voice can’t share,
The words that are hard to speak out loud.
For my emotions remain intertwined with them,
Memories that hold so many things.
All the good and bad,
The happy and sad moments.
Ones I wish to never forget,
Ones I wish I could.
Yet besides me you remain,
Within those memories I see you,
The person I will always wish to be with,
The you who has and will forever be besides me.
With these flowers,
With soundless words,
I hope you’ll know,
Just how much you mean to me.
For though I speak those words,
So many times,
Every single moment,
I hope you’ll always know,
How much I love you.
In my hands I hold a flower,
In my heart I hold a memory,
An emotion so dear,
A life,
That I can never forget
“Besides me you stand,”
“Always there, never gone.”
“Even when you are.”
“You are always here.”
“For you are the one,”
“The only one.”
“Who I would share eternity with,”
“Now and forever more”

Note: I must admit that I was getting a bit teary-eyed with this poem because I ended up thinking of my parents who have now been married for 27 years and have had a loving relationship I hope I can have in the future. Speaking of which, if you're reading this (mom and dad) I LOVE YOU!!!