All I Really Want...

Every day I wonder if people like me, does any ever notice me? Does anyone think that I’m lower then scum and that I shouldn’t even exist?

It feels as if I should have never been born, as if my existence was a mistake. There are those who love me and those who hate me for even just being alive.

I’m kind, I’m patient, and polite. I don’t hurt others, I try to help, and I always try to be good. I don’t argue and I give up the things I want. But, no even says a word to me.

No one ever really thinks about me. I’m always the one that’s never noticed, even when I’m with everyone.

I’m always alone, I have no one but myself in the end.

Does anyone see me, does anyone hear me? I’m always alone in inside, because no one will ever notice me.

No one will ever hear me in the cacophony voices before me, even if I scream!

I’m the one who’s always hurt, I always smile a fake smile.

I’m never really happy, I always seem to lie to others and myself.

I want someone to hear me and see me, I don’t want to be forgotten.

I want someone to hold me close and stay with me forever until die. I don’t want be alone anymore even if I’m the pushing everyone away.

Isn’t there someone who will understand me, my true self.

I no longer want to be in the darkness or even in the twilight.

I want to be free, I want to be happy, and be in the light.

All I really want to know is that I’m alive.