Weave Song

Where are you?

Where am I?

Sing, oh sing,

Weave me a never-ending story,

Let me dream for eternity.

Fall and rise,

The stars shine,

So briefly,

So fleeting,

It burns in the abyss of time.

Please sing for me,

Weave a story never-ending,

Sing, oh sing,

A world to forever dwell within.

Let me sleep,

Let me dream.

In the dark eternal sky,

In the endless expanse.

So cold is the dark,

So hot is the light.

Burn oh light,

Forever burn,

And end in fire.

Let the ashes scatter,

Let the stardust fly free.

Where are you?

Where am I?

Sing, oh sing,

Weave me a never-ending story,

Weave and dream a story,

One untold,

One yet to be,

One from long ago,

One never real,

One-

Sing, sing for me,

A place to dwell,

There- here I stay,

Deep in sleep,

Lost to another place.

Deep in sleep,

I cannot hear,

I cannot see,

I cannot feel.

In the dark eternal sky,

In the endless expanse.

Fall and rise,

The stars shine,

So cold is the dark,

So hot is the light.

So briefly,

So fleeting,

It burns in the abyss of time.

Burn oh light,

Forever burn,

And end in fire.

Let the ashes scatter,

Let the stardust fly free.

Where are you?

Where am I?

Where, just where?

Are we supposed to be?

Sing, oh sing,

Sing, sing for me,

Weave me a never-ending story,

Weave and dream a story yet to be spoken,

Let me dream for eternity.

There, here,

Let me sleep and dream.

So cold, so warm,

In the endless sky,

So eternal, never ending.

Always changing,

Always awake,

Always asleep.

Lost to another place,

Another world.

I cannot hear,

I cannot see,

I cannot feel,

In the eternal sky.

Where are you?

Where am I?

Where are we supposed to be?

Where, just where?

Please sing, sing,

Sing for me.

Don’t fade,

Don’t leave,

Don’t leave me behind.

Sing, oh sing,

Sing, sing for me,

Weave me a never-ending story,

Weave and dream a story,

One untold,

One yet to be,

One from long ago,

One never real,

One-

Sing, sing for me,

A place to dwell,

One to stay within,

Let me stay,

Let me be there.

Stay with me,

Stay with me,

Until the song ends,

Until we fall into the abyss of time,

Until we become stardust;

So Bitter Sweet

So cold is the loneliness,
So bitter and sweet is solitude,
So warm is the presence of another.
But what a fool I was,
For believing I could be brave.
What a fool I was.
A coward is all I am,
I can’t even speak the words I hold inside.
So broken they sound,
Till on paper,
And they become a symphony,
A silent song.
Always, always,
I find myself alone.
Always, always,
I beg for solitude.
It hurts, it hurts,
The burning flames.
It hurts, it hurts,
The stinging cold void.
What a fool I was,
For believing I could be brave.
What a fool I was.
So cold is the loneliness,
So bitter and sweet is solitude,
So warm is the presence of another.
Is it a lie?
A curse placed upon me.
For why, why,
Does it all hurt.
Yet I cannot speak the words,
The words to set me free.
For my voice is rusted,
My courage weak.
I can’t even speak the words I hold inside.
So broken they sound,
Till on paper,
And they become a symphony,
A silent song.
A plea,
A story,
A hope,
A simple word.
Always, always,
I can never speak out loud to you.
Always, always
I find myself alone.
Always, always,
I beg for solitude.
A cycle of pain,
That will never end.
A torment upon my fragile heart,
My already broken form.
So cold is the loneliness,
So bitter and sweet is solitude,
So warm is the presence of another.
But what a fool I was,
For believing I could be brave.
What a fool I was.
A coward is all I am,
I can’t even speak the words I hold inside.
It hurts, it hurts,
The burning flames.
It hurts, it hurts,
The stinging cold void.
All the bottled-up thoughts,
The countless undistorted words,
The screaming emotions.
It all hurts, it hurts,
All the things I can’t say,
All those moments together and alone.
What a fool I was,
For believing I could be brave.
What a fool I was.
A coward is all I am,
I can’t even speak the words I hold inside.
So broken they sound,
Till on paper,
And they become a symphony,
A silent song.
My cry,
My scream,
A plea,
A story,
My hope,
A simple word,
A complex thought,
My nameless emotions.
So many things,
Yet also none.
So lost, so lost,
Is my heart,
My broken form.
I cry, I cry,
Always for things I can’t describe,
Always for reasons I can’t speak.
So cold is the loneliness,
So bitter and sweet is solitude,
So warm is the presence of another.
Oh, how easily it can become reversed.
So bitter, so sweet,
So warm, so cold,
Is my time here.
Still what a fool I was,
For believing I could be brave.
For thinking I could change it,
For even hoping.
What a fool I was,
What a fool I still am,
A bittersweet fool;

Storyteller

Come and let me tell you a story,

A story about a kind yet lonely storyteller.

All alone she lived in the mountains,

Rarely leaving but always listening,

Always watching the world that lie below her.

Alone she spent her time weaving stories,

Creating worlds from her imagination.

Always lost in thought,

Always dreaming of another place.

Why she stayed though,

Was because she was a broken person.

All alone she lived in the mountains,

Rarely leaving out of fear of the world,

Yet she always longed to know more.

To see and hear the world,

To learn more stories,

To experience the things she had only dreamt about.

Alone she spent her time weaving stories,

Creating worlds from her imagination.

Letting herself become lost in the dreams,

To escape the world she both loved and hated.

Because its people were both so kind yet so cruel,

Because she was always alone in the end.

Let me tell you story,

A story with no happy or sad ending,

One still unfinished.

All alone she lived in the mountains,

Rarely leaving but always listening,

Always watching the world that lie below her.

Alone she spent her time weaving stories,

Creating worlds from her imagination.

Always lost in thought,

Always dreaming of another place.

For she was a broken and delicate soul,

Easily hurt, easily broken,

Always alone in the end.

Yet still full of wonder,

A still flawed and hurt,

But gentle soul.

Let me tell you a story,

To forget the pain,

To ignore the pain,

The sadness and hate.

To let everything go,

To escape for just a moment.

All alone she lived,

Always silently weaving stories.

Rarely leaving,

Yet always watching,

Always remembering.

She was a broken and delicate soul,

Easily hurt, easily broken,

Always alone in the end.

Rarely leaving out of fear of the world,

Yet always longing,

To experience the things she had only dreamt about.

Come and let me tell you a story,

A story about a kind yet lonely storyteller.

A story still unfished,

One that is neither simply happy or sad.

But instead, let us escape.

Go to another world,

Born from our imaginations,

Our dreams and wishes,

Our hopes and prayers.

There I want to stay,

There I find myself free.

All alone she lived,

Always silently weaving stories.

Rarely leaving,

Yet always watching,

Always remembering.

She was a broken and delicate soul,

Easily hurt, easily broken,

Always alone in the end.

Yet still full of wonder,

A still flawed and hurt,

But gentle, loving soul.

One who both loves and hates,

A lonely girl who continues to weave,

To create stories,

A world of her own,

While all alone,

In her painful sadness,

Her happy dreams;

Wordless Prayer

How long have I silently been begging,

Quietly whispering a wordless prayer.

That my very soul clings to,

A hope that has yet to be answered.

Nothing can express it,

No words, no emotion,

Not a single thing can.

It’s a question without an answer,

An answer without a question.

Why do I so easily lose myself to stories?

Fantasies that are my escape.

Why do I lose myself to dreams,

To thoughts of another world of my creation.

I can’t explain, I can’t describe,

What it is that makes me who I am.

For I don’t even truly know myself.

So many words I have spoken,

So many words I have written.

Indomitable, hope, dreams,

Pain, thoughts, so many words,

Too many for me to remember.

Too many to describe.

How long have I silently been begging,

Quietly whispering a wordless prayer.

That my very soul clings to,

A hope that has yet to be answered.

A hope I put into stories of my own,

Even as I cling to my memories,

The thoughts, the feelings,

Everything that is now gone,

And will never happen again.

Time keeps moving,

Even as I beg for it to stop,

To turn back to what I wish to keep.

Yet, it seems the world does not care for me.

Even a god it seems, if they exist,

Does not care for me.

Why I ask, for what reason,

Am I even here?

My heart is fragile,

My mind is flawed,

My soul is screaming,

Why was I born broken?

Why am I this way?

Please why, is all I ask.

Yet nothing, has answered me.

How long have I silently been begging,

Quietly whispering a wordless prayer.

That my very soul clings to,

A hope that has yet to be answered.

A dream that is simply a dream,

One that my very soul clings to.

Silently weaving, quietly existing,

Is the silent storyteller,

Who remembers all,

But is forgotten by the world.

That is all that I am,

A storyteller,

A star made of glass,

A lost bird,

A wandering soul,

That’s stuck in between.

Just who am I?

Why am I here?

Even as I cling to my memories,

The thoughts, the feelings,

Everything that is now gone,

And will never happen again.

So many words I have spoken,

So many words I have written.

So many,

Too many for me to remember.

Too many to describe.

Nothing can express it,

No words, no emotion,

Not a single thing can.

It’s a question without an answer,

An answer without a question.

Why do I so easily lose myself to stories?

Fantasies that are my escape.

Why do I lose myself to dreams,

To thoughts of another world of my creation.

I’m crying as I smile for you,

I’m screaming out,

Even in the calming silence.

I only pretend to be strong,

Even when I am,

I’m not.

I’m afraid of falling,

I’m afraid of staying broken,

I’m afraid so many things,

Things that nothing can describe.

How long have I silently been begging,

Quietly whispering a wordless prayer.

That my very soul clings to,

A hope that has yet to be answered.

A dream, that is just a dream,

The hope born from a child’s love.

A love my now heartbroken soul,

So delicately embraces.

A love, a light, a star of glass,

My wordless prayer.

That is all I am,

Even at the very end;

“Silently weaving, quietly existing,”

“Is the silent storyteller,”

“Who remembers all,”

“But is forgotten by the world.”

“All while quietly whispering,”

“A wordless prayer.”

Diva of Lament

Beneath the ashes, is your cold face.
While only a tainted smile is reflected.
How sad, how painful,
This broken heart has fallen into damnation.
Was it a sin to love?
A curse upon my once innocent soul?
A crimson moon dyes the grey ruined world red,
As my cries of lament echo throughout this broken world.
The wailing diva is all I hear,
The endless shadows is all I see.
How sad, how painful,
It is to be broken.
Beneath the ash, are the dreams I buried away.
Alongside the gentle memories,
That are slowly fading away.
Was it a sin to love?
A curse upon my once innocent soul?
A crimson moon dyes the grey ruined world red,
As my cries of lament echo throughout this broken world.
Only the shadows remain,
A faint memory of once was.
A ghost alongside dead stars.
So quiet, so deafening,
Is the silence.
So broken, so cold,
Is the wailing diva deep in lament.
Beneath the ashes, is your cold face.
While only a tainted smile is reflected.
How sad, how painful,
This broken heart has fallen into damnation.
While my tarnished and stained form,
Begins to break apart.
Oh how sad, how painful,
Is the quiet, so deafening.
Is the empty room,
Is the void that was left behind.
Was it a sin to love?
A curse upon my once innocent soul?
A crimson moon dyes the grey ruined world red,
As my cries of lament echo throughout this broken world.
The wailing diva is all I hear,
My fractured reflection is all I see.
How sad, how painful,
It is to be broken.
Only the shadows remain,
A faint memory of once was.
A ghost alongside dead stars.
So broken, so cold,
Is the wailing diva deep in lament.
I pray to fade away,
To return to dust to start again.
But only the ghosts,
Can hear this wailing voice.
How sad, how painful,
Is the endless solitude.
Oh how, why is it so?
That all that is left,
Is my broken soul?
Beneath the ashes, is your cold face.
While only a tainted smile is reflected.
How sad, how painful,
This broken heart has fallen into damnation.
Was it a sin to love?
A curse upon my once innocent soul?
A crimson moon dyes the grey ruined world red,
As my cries of lament echo throughout this broken world.
Cursing the world, is the diva given in to sorrow.
Cursing the world, is myself.
Oh how sad, how painful,
Is this story of mine.
As my tarnished and stained form,
Begins to break apart.
A ghost alongside dead stars,
Is all that shall remain.
Is all the crying diva deep in lament shall be,
Till the very end.
Was it a sin to love?
A curse upon the world?
A crimson moon dyes the grey ruined world red,
As my cries of lament echo throughout this broken world.
As everything returns to dust,
As everything fades away;

Witch Fire

Burn it all away,
Let it turn to ash.
This heart you broke,
My trust which you betrayed.
You don’t deserve my sympathy,
My once tender mercy.
For you’re the one who ignited the flame,
Don’t blame me,
For I was just the kindling.
You say you were under my spell,
To hide the love you had for me.
Love for a witch, an outcast.
Oh, how wonderful it all was,
The lie you gave me,
The beautiful days that are now gone.
All because of your shame,
Your hatred for unnatural things,
For who and what I am.
Burn it all away,
Let it turn to ash.
All the lies,
All those once tender words.
I hate it all,
Take it all away,
Everything we had.
For it all means nothing now,
Including you.
This day you ignited the flame,
I was just the kindling.
So don’t blame me,
For the fire that consumes everything.
All I needed to say was spell,
All I could have done was cast the magic.
But you don’t deserve my thoughts,
My tender mercy.
I hate you,
You hate me.
I don’t care anymore,
For you broke my heart.
Never betray a witch,
An unnatural creature.
Its all your fault,
Its all because of you.
Don’t try to smile,
Or speak those once tender words.
Burn in the flames,
Turn to ash,
Become nothing,
For your now the kindling,
A stain of red upon black.
Burn it all away,
Let it turn to ash.
Everything you are,
Everything we had,
Everything that was me;

Hey, are you still there?

Hey, are you still there?
How many times have I asked that?
How many repeating days have gone by?
How much will change?
Can you remember?
All those moments we’ve spent together.
I still can…
Every memory I recall,
Leaves me feeling warm,
But also so sad and lonely.
Because I know those days,
Your smile,
I will never see again someday.
Please, don’t leave me here alone.
Please, is there a reason?
Why this already broken heart of mine,
Continues to break.
All I wanted in the end was to be happy with everyone.
Please, stop this repeating tragedy.
Please someone, something, take it all away,
All this pain I have and feel.
I can’t hide it anymore,
I can’t let them be sad because of me.
Hey, are you still there?
I don’t want to be alone,
I don’t want you go.
Because, if I could spend the rest of my days with you- 
How many repeating days have gone by?
How much will change?
I’m afraid,
Yet curious,
Of change.
Please, don’t leave me here alone.
Please, is there a reason?
Why this already broken heart of mine,
Continues to break.
Can you remember?
All those moments we’ve spent together.
I still can…
Every memory I recall,
Leaves me feeling warm,
But also so sad and lonely.
Because I know those days,
Your smile,
I will never see again someday.
All I wanted in the end was to be happy with everyone.
Please, stop this repeating tragedy.
Please someone, something, take it all away,
All this pain I have and feel.
I’m not sure if I can fight it,
I’m not sure for how much longer I can,
Continue on for all of you.
Please, please, end these painful repeating days.
Please, I ask,
I pray, I wish,
For a future I can share with everyone.
Don’t let my light die,
Please don’t let my glass star heart break again.
Please, I beg,
I want only one thing.
Hey, are you still there?
Can you remember?
All those moments we’ve spent together.
I still can…
Every memory I recall,
Leaves me feeling warm,
But also so sad and lonely.
Because I know those days,
Your smile,
I may never see again someday.
Hey, are you still there?
Because I want to spend the rest of my days with you.
With everyone.
I want to be with you all;

"Please, live;"

“Please, don’t go.”
“Please don’t leave.”
“Because now is too soon.”
“Now is too painful.”
“For we’re- I’m not ready.”
“To say goodbye again so soon.”
“Please stay…”
As the days pass by, I find it too easy to forget.
To let everything become a distant thought.
Because my heart cannot take the pain,
Of the thoughts that hurt the most.
Because my mind would rather dream and wander,
Within the worlds of my creation.
To forget reality.
That is why, I’m not always with you.
Because reality often hurts me more than loneliness.
But if you were to leave, if you were-
Please, don’t go.
Please, don’t leave.
Because now is too soon.
Now is too painful.
For we’re- I’m not ready.
To say goodbye again so soon.
Please stay…
Please stay…
As the days pass by, I fight to be here.
To survive the pain in my heart.
To deny the monsters in my mind,
My other self, the shadow of myself,
Let me disappear, to let go my life.
But for them, so no parent will have to bury their child.
So the pain I feel, you will not have to feel.
Because I care, because I love.
I’ll continue to live
But if you were to leave, if you were to go.
I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself,
It would be harder to live.
Because my reasons,
The ones I care for.
Are my reason to live.
Please, don’t go.
Please, don’t leave.
Because now is too soon.
Now is too painful.
For we’re- I’m not ready.
To say goodbye again so soon.
Please stay…
Please stay…
Please I beg you,
Please for me,
For you.
Please continue to live
As the days pass by, I find it too easy to forget.
To let everything become a distant thought.
Because my heart cannot take the pain,
Because my mind would rather dream and wander,
Within the worlds of my creation.
Please forgive me,
For its hard to think,
Its hard to know,
That in an instant,
I can lose everything.
Please don’t go,
Please stay…
Please I beg you,
Please for me,
For you,
Please stay,
Please continue to live
Because without you,
How could I continue living in this lonely world?
Please, live;

No Matter...

“No matter what I say.”
“No matter how I word it.”
“No matter how I show it.”
“I see that you can’t see,”
“Even when I don’t hide it.”
“You can’t see that I’m not okay.”
On a summer day,
Your all smiling and happy.
I hear you laughing as I watch you all.
All while inside I’m screaming in pain.
I can’t explain it,
I can’t find a reason.
But I know I’m not alright,
And I feel like I’m less than nothing.
Worthless, miserable, broken,
A want to lock myself away from the world.
Its like I’m nothing but broken glass,
Shattered and put together again and again,
But always with pieces missing and cracks all over.
Why is it that no matter what I say?
No matter how I word it.
No matter how I show it.
I see that you can’t see,
Even when I don’t hide it.
You can’t see that I’m not okay.
Why can’t you see,
Why can’t you understand?
Though even as I want you here,
I want to be alone.
But please don’t leave me behind,
Even as I say to leave me be.
As I lock myself away,
I’m silently screaming for this all to stop,
Even as I’m silently begging for you to be here.
On a winter day,
Your all smiling and happy.
I hear you laughing as I watch you all play.
All while inside I’m falling apart.
I can’t explain it,
I can’t find a reason.
But I know I’m not alright,
And I feel like I’m less than nothing.
I still smile and laugh,
I still hold you tight and say, “I love you.”
But beneath all,
I’m the one who needs you.
I know I hide it all,
I know you can’t always see it,
That you may never truly understand.
I know I’m lying, but…
I’m fighting the monsters inside me,
That me I never wanted inside me,
The thing inside I never wanted to become.
I’m fighting for you,
But its hard.
Because every part of me is already broken,
Fragile like broken glass,
Shattered and put together again and again,
But always with pieces missing and cracks all over.
Though still no matter what I say.
No matter how I word it.
No matter how I show it.
I see that you can’t see,
Even when I don’t hide it.
You can’t see that I’m not okay.
Its not your fault though,
You’re not the reason.
Its me, its myself that’s to blame in the end.
I love you, even when I push you away.
I don’t hate you, even when my words are like knifes.
I’m crying for you, even when I lock myself away.
No matter what,
I want to be alright.
On a summer day,
I want to be happy with you.
On a winter day,
I want to be with you.
But no matter what I do,
I’m still not okay.
Though even now,
I hope you know that I still,
Love you all