Wednesday, November 25, 2020
Hiraeth
Friday, November 20, 2020
Before the End
“Of fairy tales, folktales, and legends.”
“Stories of heroes who defeat the forces of evil.”
“Of a prince rescuing the princess.”
“Of a girl who tamed a beast and lived.”
“Of the sad reality of this world.”
“The things I wanted to forget.”
“And the things I wanted to become.”
All alone beneath the night sky,
I stand before our childhood sanctuary,
A place safe and hidden from the cruel world.
Here now I stand,
As I pray to god above.
For a world where you can all be happy,
A world that could only come true in fairy tales,
In the stories we once loved.
I live now in those stories,
Of heroes and villains.
I live the true reality,
That was hidden by honeyed lies.
Why did I put my hope in fairy tales?
Stories full of only dreams, hope, and gentle lies.
For they are why I follow this path,
They are why I begged god to let me become a hero,
To follow the innocent dream of a child.
So with sword in hand and with hope in my flawed heart,
I blindly joined a war I wasn’t ready for.
Is my suffering,
Is this pain and regret I feel,
A price I must pay for my past mistakes?
Deep in an ancient forest,
All alone beneath the night sky,
I stand before our hidden haven,
Hoping, praying, wishing,
Begging to god,
To save this flawed yet beautiful world,
This world that you live in.
That wish I made, that dream I held on to,
Was born of a child, a lonely and sad girl,
Who wanted nothing more than to protect those she held dear.
Here now I stand,
As I pray to god above,
For a world where you can all be happy.
You once told me stories.
Of fairy tales, folktales, and legends.
Stories of heroes who defeat the forces of evil.
Of a prince rescuing the princess.
Of a girl who tamed a beast and lived.
Of the sad reality of this world.
The things I wanted to forget.
And the things I wanted to become.
I don’t want to forget those bittersweet memories,
I want to hear your voice again,
To see your smiling face again,
Just once more…
Alone I stand before childhood home,
Our sanctuary, our safe haven from the world,
Hidden away deep in a forest,
Where only forgotten live.
Here now I stand,
As I pray to god above.
For a world where you can all be happy,
A world that could only come true in fairy tales,
In the stories we once loved.
I now live those stories,
As I tear away the honeyed lies,
Burn away the false hopes and gentle lies,
All so I can keep my promise,
Our dream alive.
Just how long has it been since that day?
How long ago was it that we promised,
That we begged god to let us follow this once hopeful path.
The dreams and hopes born from the innocent hearts of two lonely children.
For you, I left with sword in hand and hope in my broken heart,
I foolishly joined a war I wasn’t ready for.
Please forgive me, please forgive this foolish girl.
Is this pain and regret I feel,
A price I must pay for my past mistakes,
For all those sins I have and will make?
All alone beneath the night sky,
I stand before our childhood sanctuary,
A place safe and hidden from the cruel world.
Here now I stand,
As I pray to god above.
For a world where you can all be happy,
A world that could only come true in fairy tales.
You once told me stories.
Of fairy tales, folktales, and legends.
Stories of heroes who defeat the forces of evil.
Of a prince rescuing the princess.
Of a girl who tamed a beast and lived.
Of the sad reality of this world.
The things I wanted to forget.
And the things I wanted to become.
I don’t want to forget those bittersweet memories,
I want to hear your voice again,
To see your smiling face again,
Just once more…
Why did I put my hope in fairy tales?
Stories full of only dreams, hope, and gentle lies.
For they are why I follow this path,
They are why I begged god to let me become a hero,
To follow the innocent dream of a child.
All I wanted was to be by your side,
To protect this beautiful broken world.
To protect you…
Please forgive me, god I beg you.
Tell me why I must suffer alone,
For why I couldn’t protect him in the end.
I this the price I must pay for my past mistakes?
Deep in an ancient forest,
All alone beneath the night sky,
I stand before our childhood sanctuary,
A place safe and hidden from the cruel world.
Here now I stand,
As I pray and beg to god above.
For a world where you could have been happy,
For a better world, a place where our dream came true.
For your soul to be able to gentle pass on,
For my memories of you to endure within my scared heart.
You once told me stories.
Of fairy tales, folktales, and legends.
Stories of heroes who defeat the forces of evil.
Of a prince rescuing the princess.
Of a girl who tamed a beast and lived.
Of the sad reality of this world.
The things I wanted to forget.
And the things I wanted to become.
You told me them to set my free,
To give me hope,
To give me a memory.
I don’t want to forget them,
To not forget you.
Hoping, praying, wishing,
Begging god,
To let me once more hear your voice again,
To see your smiling face again,
Just once more…
Just once more before…
Here I now stand,
Living the last story,
The last dream you gave me,
This story of our own making.
Yet like all stories it must now end,
So here I stand,
Here I beg god for one thing.
To not let this beautiful sad story to not be lost,
To not be lost or erased.
In the stories you once told me,
I now leave my final words,
My final dream, my final hope,
My final prayer before the end;
Saturday, November 7, 2020
Forget-me-not
While stinging Nettles,
The cursed Nightshade,
Beg me to sleep.
All I hold are Forget-me-nots,
Nothing else.
Only thoughts and silent prayers are left to give.
Along with fragile dreams,
A world within my mind.
Broken glass,
Lies all over,
Tangled in red string,
That holds up glass stars.
The books…
The flowers…
A single candle flame…
Are they even real?
Scattered paper,
Fragments of a record,
Stained with tears and pencil led.
The only clues to thoughts, to memories,
I was so close to losing.
Forget-me-nots surround me,
While stinging Nettles,
The cursed Nightshade,
Beg me to sleep.
The glass shards,
Appear cold and sharp like knifes of ice.
The candle with a single flame,
Feels so warm, so hot.
All I hold are Forget-me-nots,
A single candle,
With hands tied by red string,
Nothing else, no one else.
Only thoughts and silent prayers are left to give.
Along with fragile dreams,
A world within my mind.
A dream, a dream,
An escape, an escape,
My freedom, my cage,
My own little world.
Broken glass,
Lies all over,
Tangled in red string,
That holds up glass stars,
My glass star heart.
The books…
The flowers…
The starlit sky…
A single candle flame…
A silent prayer…
Are they even real?
Scattered paper,
Fragments of a record,
Blooming Forget-me-nots,
Stained with tears and pencil led.
The only clues to thoughts, to memories,
Far away emotions,
I was close to losing.
I’m forgetting,
I’m remembering.
I’m losing,
I’m gaining-
The last sparks of light,
Of gentle fragile light,
That burns like starlight.
Its bittersweet,
Its lonely,
In this place,
Only silence,
As I weave together the pieces,
The fragments of-
All I hold are Forget-me-nots,
A single candle,
With hands tied by red string,
Nothing else, no one else.
Only thoughts and silent prayers are left to give.
Along with fragile dreams,
A world within my mind.
It’s all changing,
The birds are flying away,
The past is the past forever.
Yet will love,
Be indomitable?
For that is one thing,
I know I wish for.
How long have I silently been begging,
Quietly whispering a wordless prayer.
My glass star heart…
The books…
The flowers…
The starlit sky…
A single candle flame…
A silent prayer…
Are they even real?
Scattered paper,
Fragments of a record,
Blooming Forget-me-nots,
Stained with tears and pencil led,
Bits of red from cuts made by Thorns.
The only clues to thoughts, to memories,
Far away emotions,
All I hold so dearly to my broken soul,
My glass heart,
That I was close to losing,
That life is trying to take from me.
All I hold are Forget-me-nots,
A single candle,
With hands tied by red string,
What else is there to give?
What else can I dream?
What else can I see?
Forget-me-nots surround me,
While stinging Nettles,
The cursed Nightshade,
Beg me to sleep.
But Ivy and Holly,
Hold me back.
Fire burns away,
To ash they slowly become.
As in their place grows Hawthorn and Yew.
Forget-me-nots all over,
Broken glass still lies scattered,
Among a forest of books,
With glass stars and red string,
My glass star heart.
Are they even real?
Will love,
Be indomitable?
Will my silent prayers,
Be answered?
Will I always remember?
This inner world,
This other place.
That other me,
Are they even real?
Forget-me-nots surround me,
As I forever silently weave,
Quietly existing in my little world,
Embraced by the Forget-me-nots;
Saturday, October 17, 2020
Chapter Four: Spell of Intertwining
“Tie me a knot of string, made with Holly and Ivy.”
“Give a gift of
golden Wheat, with Basil and Thorn Apple.”
“The words of
Freesia, the meaning of Edelweiss.”
“So silent, so
quiet, so speak softly before them.”
“Before the
lonely Yew, holding Cedar and Birch.”
“Wish well the
spirits of Hawthorn.”
“Before you tie
me a knot of string.”
“Made of Holly
and Ivy, with Forget-me-nots.”
“For a spell, a
wish to be forever intertwined.”
Tell me a story
of ages past,
Speak to me a
spell of Hawthorn and protection.
Sing to me, the
voices of the forest.
The silent words
of flowers,
Of the hidden spirits
that walk among us.
In a field of golden
Wheat,
Run, run, become
the wind.
In the deep
forests,
Sleep, sleep,
become the earth.
A bed of Holly waits
for you,
Beneath the
Mistletoe.
Fire burns, fire
takes,
Fire renews.
From the grey
comes the green,
A new beginning.
So lonely I was,
Until you came.
From loneliness,
I learned to keep
hold,
Of the fleeting
moments,
That will someday
be no more.
Avoid the
Nightshade and Nettles,
The black Mulberry and Mandrake.
Follow the Great Maple, the Ivy,
The gentle Edelweiss and the Bitter Root.
In a field of
golden Wheat,
Run, run, become
the wind.
In the deep
forests,
Sleep, sleep,
become the earth.
A bed of Holly
waits for you,
Beneath the
Mistletoe.
Water flows and
gives,
Its rage destroys,
Its calm gives
life.
So cold is the
white snow,
So tall the
mountains are,
So close to the
clouds above,
Yet so far.
Tell me a story
of ages past,
Speak to me a
spell of Hawthorn and protection.
Sing to me, the
voices of the forest.
The silent words
of flowers,
Of the hidden
spirits that walk among us.
Don’t leave me,
Don’t go.
Let us be
together forever,
Within the
forgotten lands,
Among spirits of
the past,
Intertwined
together.
So lonely I was,
Until you came.
From loneliness,
I learned to keep
hold,
Of the fleeting
moments,
That will someday
be no more.
Let us cast a
spell,
To keep hold a
while longer,
The time we have
together.
So, tie me a knot
of string, made with Holly and Ivy.
Give a gift of
golden Wheat, with Basil and Thorn Apple.
The words of
Freesia, the meaning of Edelweiss.
So silent, so
quiet, so speak softly before them.
Before the lonely
Yew, holding Cedar and Birch.
Wish well the
spirits of Hawthorn.
Before you tie me
a knot of string.
Made of Holly and
Ivy, with Forget-me-nots.
For a spell, a
wish to be forever intertwined.
Always, for
eternity,
Even when apart.
Tell me a story
of ages past,
Speak to me a
spell of Hawthorn and protection.
Sing to me, the
voices of the forest.
The silent words
of flowers,
Of the hidden
spirits that walk among us.
In a field of
golden Wheat,
Run, run, become
the wind.
In the deep
forests,
Sleep, sleep,
become the earth.
A bed of Holly
waits for you,
Beneath the
Mistletoe.
The wind blows,
So free, so
gentle, so fierce.
The seeds scatter
and spread,
Voices are caught
in the wind.
Avoid the
Nightshade and Nettles,
The black
Mulberry and Mandrake.
Follow the Great
Maple, the Ivy,
The gentle
Edelweiss and the Bitter Root.
Don’t leave me,
Don’t go.
Let us be
together forever,
Within the
forgotten lands,
Among spirits of
the past,
Intertwined
together.
Tie me a knot of
string, made with Holly and Ivy.
Give a gift of
golden Wheat, with Basil and Thorn Apple.
The words of
Freesia, the meaning of Edelweiss.
So silent, so
quiet, so speak softly before them.
Before the lonely
Yew, holding Cedar and Birch.
Wish well the
spirits of Hawthorn.
Before you tie me
a knot of string.
Made of Holly and
Ivy, with Forget-me-nots.
For a spell, a
wish to be forever intertwined.
Always, for
eternity,
Even when apart.
Even as the world
falls apart,
Even if all shall
fade,
Tie me a knot of
string,
For a spell to be
forever intertwined.
To always be two
that is one,
Hold me, hold me,
Don’t let go.
Don’t forget,
Don’t let go,
Tell me a story,
Tell me you love
me;
To be Continued...
Monday, September 28, 2020
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Tuesday, September 22, 2020
To You
To you,
I would give you
everything.
To you,
I would give all
that I am.
And all that I
would ever be.
To you,
For you,
I will do
anything,
To see you again.
So pale are the
lilies,
So blue are the
forget-me-nots.
So painfully
lonely,
Is you not being
here.
Tie a knot of
string,
Kiss beneath the mistletoe,
Under a winter
moon.
Speak a spell,
To stay forever
here,
To never forget.
To you,
I would give
everything.
To you,
I would give all
that I am.
But where are
you?
Where have you gone?
For you,
I would give my
life.
For you,
I will become
anything.
For you,
I’d even become
the darkness,
For your light to
shine.
So pale are the
lilies,
So blue are the
forget-me-nots.
So painfully
lonely,
Is you not being
here.
Tie a knot of
string,
Kiss beneath the
mistletoe,
Under a winter
moon.
Speak a spell,
To stay forever
here,
To never forget.
Weave a story,
Tell a tale for
me,
For I want to
hear your voice.
Hold me safe,
Hold me tight,
To feel your
warmth,
Your kindness.
The vines tangle,
The thorns prick,
Hiding what lies
beneath.
The nettles
sting,
The frost bites,
Every time you hide
your pain.
To you,
I would give you
everything.
To you,
I would give all
that I am.
And all that I
would ever be.
To you,
For you,
I will do
anything,
To see you again.
For you,
I would give my
life.
For you,
I will become
anything.
For you,
I’d even become
the darkness,
For your light to
shine.
For you,
I’d let the
thorns prick,
The nettles
sting,
To chase away the
biting cold,
To give you
warmth,
To give you love.
I don’t care if I’m
a fool,
Cause you are my
everything.
To you,
I make a wish.
For you,
I speak a prayer.
To see you once
again,
To be by your
side again.
Tie a knot of
string,
Kiss beneath the
mistletoe,
Under a winter
moon.
Speak a spell,
To be together,
Bonded together.
Till no more we
breath,
Till our hearts
stop beating.
So pale are the
lilies,
So blue are the
forget-me-nots.
Next to the red
colored roses,
The dying roses,
The nearly black
petals.
To you,
I would give all
that I am.
And all that I
would ever be.
For you,
I’d give you my
life.
Please don’t
leave,
Don’t leave me
behind.
You are
everything,
You are my light.
To you,
I ask the stars,
To let us meet
again.
To you,
I would give all
that I am.
And all that I
would ever be.
To you,
And you alone.
Will I say,
I love you;
Weave Song
Where are you?
Where am I?
Sing, oh sing,
Weave me a never-ending
story,
Let me dream for
eternity.
Fall and rise,
The stars shine,
So briefly,
So fleeting,
It burns in the
abyss of time.
Please sing for
me,
Weave a story
never-ending,
Sing, oh sing,
A world to
forever dwell within.
Let me sleep,
Let me dream.
In the dark eternal
sky,
In the endless
expanse.
So cold is the
dark,
So hot is the
light.
Burn oh light,
Forever burn,
And end in fire.
Let the ashes
scatter,
Let the stardust fly
free.
Where are you?
Where am I?
Sing, oh sing,
Weave me a
never-ending story,
Weave and dream a
story,
One untold,
One yet to be,
One from long
ago,
One never real,
One-
Sing, sing for
me,
A place to dwell,
There- here I
stay,
Deep in sleep,
Lost to another
place.
Deep in sleep,
I cannot hear,
I cannot see,
I cannot feel.
In the dark
eternal sky,
In the endless
expanse.
Fall and rise,
The stars shine,
So cold is the
dark,
So hot is the
light.
So briefly,
So fleeting,
It burns in the
abyss of time.
Burn oh light,
Forever burn,
And end in fire.
Let the ashes
scatter,
Let the stardust
fly free.
Where are you?
Where am I?
Where, just
where?
Are we supposed
to be?
Sing, oh sing,
Sing, sing for
me,
Weave me a
never-ending story,
Weave and dream a
story yet to be spoken,
Let me dream for
eternity.
There, here,
Let me sleep and
dream.
So cold, so warm,
In the endless
sky,
So eternal, never
ending.
Always changing,
Always awake,
Always asleep.
Lost to another
place,
Another world.
I cannot hear,
I cannot see,
I cannot feel,
In the eternal
sky.
Where are you?
Where am I?
Where are we
supposed to be?
Where, just
where?
Please sing,
sing,
Sing for me.
Don’t fade,
Don’t leave,
Don’t leave me
behind.
Sing, oh sing,
Sing, sing for
me,
Weave me a
never-ending story,
Weave and dream a
story,
One untold,
One yet to be,
One from long
ago,
One never real,
One-
Sing, sing for
me,
A place to dwell,
One to stay
within,
Let me stay,
Let me be there.
Stay with me,
Stay with me,
Until the song
ends,
Until we fall into
the abyss of time,
Until we become stardust;